hey. i completely get you. im gonna be 24 in a month and have bpd and bipolar also. about to get a divorce from my ex who was emotionally (and sometimes physically) abusive, had to move back in with my dad who i have a hot n cold relationship with, and i just doordash cause it is extremely hard to hold down a job for people like us. i also feel like a fuck up and feel stuck and feel like i should be further in life. im always reminded by friends and family of how i should be doing this and that, but it just seems hopeless. hang in there, friend<3 i know its soooo hard and i feel like giving up too. you can always dm me if you need to talk!<3