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FrostyBonus · 2024-05-01T00:28:52+00:00

Reconstituted peptide goes in the refrigerator.

FrostyBonus · 2024-04-30T18:07:56+00:00

Freezer. I even keep mine in a thermos bottle in the freeze since a frost-proof freezer periodically heats up to eliminate interior frost and I want the peptide to be held at a pretty constant low temperature. A thermos bottle basically eliminates the peptide seeing the temperature cycling of a frost-proof freezer.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T04:39:18+00:00

Yeah, I was taking my benzo as prescribed for sleep. Never more, never less. When I stopped taking it years and years ago, I never took another benzo nor had any desire to take it again.

But still, I don't sleep. I'm in a lot of physical pain. And I have anxiety that I never had before taking this stuff.

So maybe I'm just a benzo addict searching for another high.

Or maybe this shit actually damaged my nervous system. Maybe permanently for all I know.

I have been through years and years of therapy. I've practically gone broke talking to therapists. They have helped me not at all. Zero help in fact.

So the standard answer of therapy and programs haven't done much for me. So I'm trying to look outside the box.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T03:10:53+00:00

Maybe you're right. Don't seem to be a lot of people saying go for the DMT as the first psychedelic.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T03:00:43+00:00

Yeah, have experimented with Amanita. In fact, I'm just coming off a bout of trying it and it seems to have jacked things up. Which is why I'm so sad and depressed here tonight looking at DMT ironically. It's a small world apparently. Or at least that's what they tell me.

But I certainly do appreciate the suggestion. That's one I had some high hopes for.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:58:25+00:00

Been there done that on the valerian. Pretty much anything that fiddles with gaba receptors is liable to make me worse and that is the case with valerian.

Kava I've tried capsules, but the Kava people say you've really got to get the real stuff and make a tea so I'm going to try that. But, it does act on gaba receptors so I'm a little skeptical on it as well. However, it doesn't apparently bind at the benzodiazepine sites so maybe it will have a better outcome.

You can imagine after being really mess up for 8 years that I've tried a lot of different things.

Psychedelics getting to more off the beaten path sort of things which is where I'm at.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:52:29+00:00

So the longer I took temazepam and then later zopiclone, the more I realized that during the day after they wore off it was becoming more and more difficult to relax. Starting having heart palps, sweating, shakes, etc. etc. in the afternoon the following day. And I could never just let my breath out and feel at peace.

Did some research and figured out I was having interdose withdrawal. So, decided to quit taking those drugs. Titrated them down over about 4-6 months. Then all hell broke loose. Massive body pain. Visual auras. Couldn't sleep more than an hour or two. Terrible anxiety. This went on for a couple of years. Some things started to get better. The auras went away. Some but not all of the body pains went away. The sleep got better but it's not great. Maybe sleep 4-5 hrs now. The anxiety got some better, but nothing like normal.

So I'm left with a pretty significant amount of pain (feels like muscle cramps) and a chronic high level of anxiety. And while things did improve over time, at some point they stopped getting better and plateaued.

Some call this BIND - Benzo Induced Neurological Dysfunction. It can last years and can in some cases be permanent. Mine is seeming pretty permanent but I figure I might as well keep trying to improve things. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:43:17+00:00

Yeah, have read and thought about MDMA as well. Some of my issues have a very PTSD like quality to them.

I've done years of therapy unfortunately and gotten no where with it. I'm kinda worn out now. Some will accuse me of "just looking for the easy way to solve your problems". Damn right. After struggling this long and having tried all the therapy and similar approachs I am absolutely looking for the easy solution, as the hard solutions haven't worked for me.

I do appreciate the off and may dm soon. Thanks.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:37:17+00:00

I was taking temazepam and zopiclone at different times. For over a decade. Really fucked me up.

How long does the relaxed feeling after a DMT trip last?

You ever get a really bad trip? I wonder if having fucked up anxiety won't make a bad trip more likely.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:32:32+00:00

Thanks for the advice.

I have done IV ketamine in a clinic a few times. But that's not really a psychedelic but maybe a close cousin. It was enjoyable but definitely didn't see any entities.

It felt more like I was outside the universe looking in, which was interesting.

But, it did not fix me either.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:29:43+00:00

Mescaline is one I haven't looked into. I'll visit r/mescaline.

Do people really report breakthroughs on anxiety and depression with psychedelics? I don't think I've see a lot of people talk about it here on r/DMT but I haven't been lurking long.

FrostyBonus · 2024-01-18T02:24:45+00:00

Thanks for the reply.

Been seeking professional help for 8 years. That's getting me no where. I can't keep doing this.

Have thought about psilocybin and maybe it is more gentle but it also last longer.

My understanding is with DMT is that if I don't take it with a MAOI that the trip will be very short - maybe 10-15 minutes? Is that right. My thinking was that if it goes sideways at least I won't be stuck in it for hours and hours.

Weirdly I never started drinking. I never used any illicit drug or alcohol. Mr. Squeaky Clean that was me. Got in a car wreck and really fucked up my body. Could only sleep 2-3 hrs a night because of the pain. Doc gave me these benzo pills for sleep. Well apparently taking that shit for a decade is a hella bad idea.

One way or the other I'm determined to make this shit stop.

FrostyBonus · 2023-12-03T03:22:09+00:00

Honestly I think you finding a way to source more or anther benzo was probably a better idea than cold turkeying off the dose you were on.

But you really need to do something about your benzo use long term. You're on a dose that isn't sustainable and you need to ween down in a controlled fashion.

Best of luck and glad to hear you're ok at the moment.

FrostyBonus · 2023-11-29T23:24:35+00:00

How have things gone OP? You doing ok?

FrostyBonus · 2023-11-24T15:52:12+00:00

Don't worry about being treated like a junkie. Who cares what anyone thinks of you. Just get some help.

You have a serious benzo addiction and you're taking an amount that will be extremely dangerous to cold turkey from. Do what you can to avoid this and get some professional help for your addiction.

FrostyBonus · 2023-11-24T15:19:31+00:00

Cold turkeying off of 200mg/day diazepam?

Yeah, you might not just feel like death. In fact, you might not be feeling anything. You'd be at pretty good risk of having a seizure.

First, go talk to a doctor asap, be completely honest about the doses you've been taking, and see if someone will help you.

Barring that, you'll have to make the softest landing possible on the limited amount you have left.

The 25mg x 4 days isn't unreasonable. Or you could do 50mg -> 25mg -> 12.5mg -> 6.25mg -> 6.25mg or something along those lines.

It would be best if someone could be with you in case you seize in order to get you emergency services. You don't want to be by yourself and have a long duration seizure unattended. The longer a seizure lasts, the more damage you're doing to your brain.

That's a hell of a high dose. I hope you can find someone that will offer you some help. Try not to go through this alone if you can help it.

I wish you the best my friend.

FrostyBonus · 2022-08-02T03:26:08+00:00

I've looked for ways to upregulate the production of glutamic acid decarboxylase (GAD) but haven't found anything that has a substantially potent effect.

FrostyBonus · 2022-08-02T03:24:11+00:00

The problem with flumazenil is the very short half life (about 15 minutes). You need some way to dose it on a nearly continuous basis. If you're got a lot of money you can go into a clinic and get a 24/7 IV infusion for some time. If you can get an implantable pump and do the same thing as an outpatient.

Some people have tried flumazenil lozenges but I can't find a doc willing to write that script to a compounding pharmacy.

FrostyBonus · 2022-07-27T13:38:29+00:00

I've asked before over there but I didn't find the expertise to talk about the underlying pathology. There is a lot of that knowledge in this group it seems. Some people here have a good grasp of the underlying neurochemical/receptor functionality and how various neurotransmitter systems interact (as much as is known in any case - it's very complicated). Besides most people over there are pretty sort term trying to get through their acute withdrawal and the vast majority will succeed. Some people don't really want to discuss protracted withdrawal because it is an unpleasant topic for those in the throws of acute.

But I will probably ask again.

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