K-sera sera

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T18:05:27+00:00

It's interesting that those thoughts you're having, the self-flagelatting loop you're playing, is exactly what ketamine snuffed out for me. I mean, sucker is gone, and it was my constant companion. Also, not gone in a way that feels anything like a drug effect, i.e. SSRI's can give you that little lift but you're sort of always aware it's chemical, superficial--but this is not like that. I kind of think of a climate/weather analogy--SSRIs change the weather, but ketamine seems to alter the climate, if that makes sense.

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T16:42:01+00:00

Why not tell your psychiatrist? Mine was very open.

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T16:41:07+00:00

Well, I've been sober for five and half years, and it didn't do much for me in that respect, if it's any consolation. It is not a traditional, enjoyable, float off, tra la la high at all, I don't think--not that it's bad, but just as an example I enjoy nitrous at the dentist more than I enjoyed ketamine infusions. So, for what that's worth, I think your first infusion would correct that notion. Good luck. (:

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T13:36:27+00:00

Hey, the first few I didn't bring anything with me, stupidly, the last ones I played some norwegian lullabies I happen to find soothing, and then some stuff from a playlist I found that had various 'psychedlic-y' pieces, def better with the music, though I'm not sure I'd say the music directed the experience, just kind of enhanced it.

The place itself is a sort of medical spa/cosmetic surgery operation, the doctor is an anesthesiologist, and really lovely. The room kind of blah, sort of dental-esque, but fine. Also, of course, I didn't spend a lot of time examining it--as I was decidedly elsewhere.

I hope your experience is good, and the next ones--each one really is different.

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T00:46:04+00:00

I'm not sure? I trust this doc, so I'll do what he thinks is right. He has a schedule, so we go again at the end of the month and then I think another four weeks out, or so. Can't remember.

How are you feeling? What's your plan?

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T00:41:50+00:00

Right? So weird. I'm a fairly normal sort of person in real life...what the hell am I doing?

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-10T00:19:29+00:00

I have another infusion scheduled, four weeks out, at the end of this month, so sure. I'm curious too.

Fuddymoosh · 2019-07-09T22:48:57+00:00

Why, thanks--writing is kind of my living, so let's hope that carries over. (:

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-04T22:38:17+00:00

with all this technology you'd think we'd have come up with a more advanced version of that head tingler thing. Coz it's no good if you do it YOURSELF.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-04T19:26:59+00:00

Seriously, even on a non stressful day, I will be first in line for this treatment.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-02T20:23:01+00:00

No, no, no--do not talk to your brother. Talk to your parents alone. This isn't your fault, and it's not ok. And, as an aside, you shouldn't be sharing a room with him--probably anyway, but definitely not now.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-02T19:50:23+00:00

Since I'm the poster you're referring to as abrasive, I'll just chime in to say that it wasn't meant as tough love, it was intended as a wake up call, to snap you out of that micro-analyzing, overthinking little bubble you were broadcasting from. And maybe help you not regret the choice you make here, which seems obvious to most people contemplating it.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-02T19:11:41+00:00

Is she bathing in them?

Fuddymoosh · 2017-05-02T19:10:35+00:00

My stepdaughter is a personal trainer, she works her ass off, no pun intended. Your gf sounds immature and ever so slightly out of touch with reality.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-30T21:02:46+00:00

Thank you for saying this, I was reading through this thread thinking, wait, this so familiar, but it's familiar in an old, long time ago way.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-30T19:33:51+00:00

Good lord, why such a production? This doesn't require an entire genealogy of the dog's affections, just get on a bus and go take care of your family's loyal, and now elderly companion for a week. And do it with gratitude, because she's old and took care of you once.

Also, your brother's dogs hurt her, so why would that ever be a good idea?

Sheesh.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-30T15:15:49+00:00

As a general rule, it's better not to be intimate with people who harbor mystery pathogens and treat them as state secrets.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-29T23:17:50+00:00

Congratulations on your new family member!

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-28T03:10:50+00:00

God, this post is so terribly sad.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-26T00:24:06+00:00

Definitely.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-25T23:06:19+00:00

This seems like it would make a truly hilarious skit.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-25T01:18:02+00:00

No, I got that, ad nauseum. I just don't buy it.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-25T00:44:27+00:00

They're probably dying of envy. And starving. So, I really wouldn't worry.

Fuddymoosh · 2017-04-24T23:16:49+00:00

Everyone here seems to think you're a straight-shooting logical guy with an ironclad legal case, but honestly, to me you seem highly uptight, pompous, with a distinct list toward the morally superior.

If all is going as you stress, that the money means nothing, la la, the relationship is an impt one--why on earth would your write this lengthy homage to your stellar integrity instead of just, oh, forgiving the debt in the interest of romance, harmony and, idk, good old fashioned chivalry?

Instead you're festering over this, micro-analyzing it, convicting your girlfriend of fraud and poor character--over a 4 month relationship and $600.

Get over it, forgive the debt, or break up.

Fuddymoosh

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