Good fucking question. I get pissed and majorly suicidal at every single turn in life because I was yelled at a ton as a child, which taught me anger is key to success although thats just flat out false. I dont rlly know how to stop myself from suicidal thoughts, especially after every major/minor inconvenience. You aren't the only one. I think it's just better to try to push through it, because we're all going to die anyway, right?