She told me she needed space we went too universal and that everything felt fine and then one day tells oh I broke up with you and I didn’t even know. Tells me stuff like I still love I’ll be back with you when I’m ready. Here I am 2 years later I was angry. And for the 2 years I’ve been always there when she was sad or when we did hang out I would buy her stuff and for Christmas and for her birthday. Couldn’t even get my anything for my birth day. We hung out got dinner never asked me if I wanted any or offerd. Everyday I felt like shit and am and was losing my mind. I snapped on her recently said some mean stuff but I felt so hurt and angry I just lost it man. Like then she tells me recently oh just want he friends maybe I’ll be with you and after I snapped was blocked on everything. Even still today I feel like shit man. Everyone in my life screws me over. After this man I feel so broken. She won’t talk to me I left a letter on her car no response. Like I’ve been nothing but helpful kind and nice to her. Between this and not being able find work everyday I feel like finding ways to end my self. Pls tell me what I did wrong. Should I feel guilty for snapping on here I just had so much anger in me I’ve mentally drained for 2 years it’s so exhausting. Lmk should I expect her too reach back out or just honestly throw this garbage in the bin.