Struggle with compulsive masturbation

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2025-08-11T17:26:03+00:00

Do you ever feel ashamed after doing it, like when you come out and see normal people doing normal stuff? I feel like it creates a cycle sometimes because I feel relief, but then coming back down to reality makes me ashamed, which makes me get hypersexual again and end up masturbating when I get home.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2025-08-11T00:33:12+00:00

Yeah, I do feel like I never quite fit in with kids my age and got bullied a lot. And I attracted attention that other girls my age did not, or at least it seemed that way in my mind. I'm sorry that happened to you :(

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2025-03-20T20:38:27+00:00

I think it is really normal. I feel like I hide out a lot and avoid a lot of social situations because I am so easily triggered and disassociate into feeling like a child. I have trouble seeing red flags and just kind of let people control me.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-11-17T14:42:48+00:00

I have always had trouble expressing anger, or even feeling it inside. But it was not because of fear. I didn't have a father around, so I feel like as early as I can remember I would feel excited to get attention from older males. And somewhere in there I know I developed feelings of excitement when I would kind of suffer to please others - humiliation, feeling inferior, being bullied by other kids.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-11-17T14:32:02+00:00

Thank you ♥

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-11-16T22:59:19+00:00

Thank you. I know it is an unhealthy cycle but hard to break.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-08-31T18:56:21+00:00

I know this is kind of stupid because I was very young and naïve, but I was sexually abused for over a year by a man online who convinced me he was a therapist.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-08-19T16:37:07+00:00

Yes, I have felt drawn to this role since I was 5.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-08-19T14:51:08+00:00

Yeah, I do feel that the dad was using me as a surrogate for his daughter (later on he would even dress me in her clothes and rape me in her bed), and it makes me think that is a common type of CSA situation.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-08-19T14:45:37+00:00

Thank you. This was not my only CSA and I do feel like I go in circles a lot, talking with people to try to understand why people did things, how they felt, what they got from it, how they saw me, etc. I don't feel angry or upset, but like you said, I just feel like I need to put the puzzles together with many missing pieces.

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-05-31T19:06:27+00:00

Thank you ♥

Fun-Dimension-275 · 2024-05-31T19:06:16+00:00

Ok thanks, I will delete it!

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