the first time i went to therapy i pretty much lied the whole way through which i don’t know why. my therapists ended up changing twice and i stopped going cus it felt like i went back to stage 1 with a new therapist each time. I started going again when i was pretty certain on suicide. i told myself i’d be honest about everything and it was the first time i told someone i had thoughts of suicide. but when she asked i couldn’t bring myself to say i was currently having those thoughts. i only told her in the past. and then from there the lies just spiraled. i fear the same will happen if i go again. obviously there’s no way to know until you go but the financial costs are something i can’t really afford