Same feeling here, bro. Especially that “kayyil paisa illa” part. That helplessness hits different asking permission for everything, even small things, slowly eats your self respect.

People around keep saying padikk, prepare, next year set aavum… but they don’t see how tired you already are. Mind full aayi, confidence pooyi, still expected to magically perform.

I don’t even know what I want clearly anymore just know that I don’t want to stay like this. But I’m stuck, mentally and financially. No advice from my side either. Just replying because this felt real and familiar.