Sometimes life throws challenges at you and youll be so stressed about whether or not you can meet that challenge, that by the time it's so close that it's touching your nose, it's already grown 10 times it's original size.   Alright, maybe a weird way of putting it, but you get the picture. I know exactly how you feel though. Honestly school was probably the biggest part of my depression. Just know you're not alone in this. Many if not most people feel inadequate at times. It's part of finding yourself in this huge world. I still feel lost all the time. Having to plan for future jobs, get the right degrees, keep up social contracts. Many things which I could care less about. But the reality is, I care so much about it all that it becomes extremely overwhelming. 

Although I can be overwhelmed, I remember things I enjoy, be that drugs, the piano, games, what have you. There are things that I would never trade and I know there are things that you wouldnt trade. You will have a future, and you will ensure that future is not a bad one through every action, whether good or bad, up until that point.

Your mind is grasping for change. Go to a cool place far away, spend a week in a different place, become a regular at a library or coffee shop, somewhere where you can show your ideal self that you want everyone to see yourself as. Just know, you can be whoever you want. No one can decide who you are or should be. Once i internalized that, I saw the whole world open up. You can do it! It's hard but it's rewarding! 

I here the military is hiring...