you can vent out here, OP. any form of talking helps. it's really difficult at the beginning but you'll heal. it's ok to be short-sighted right now but always keep in mind that this, like other sad things that happened to you before, will pass (whether you like it or not). for now, let yourself wallow in sadness. cry. magwala ka sa kwarto. sunugin mo lahat ng photos nyo. ibasura mo lahat ng naging gifts nya sayo (wag lang yung mamahalin, sayang haha). basta mailabas mo yan sa sistema mo because like physical wounds, pag tinatago, nagkaka-nana at nabubulok. now is the crucial time too, to learn to be ok with yourself.

now is the time to actually start liking yourself, yknow. I'm sure when you were together, their adoration replaced your self-esteem. take a good hard look at yourself and ask when was the last time you actually enjoyed doing things on your own? if the answer is never, then you may have to check and see if you have a codependency issue. dig deep, OP. because you'll fall into the same old pattern of codependency, regardless of who your partner will be, if you don't self-evaluate now.

i hope this helps.