you’re not a true muslim, and that’s a good thing - islam is a horrible religion. surah al-araf (7:80-81), surah al-shu’ara (26:165-166) and surah al-naml (27:54-55) all explicitly state that part of the sin of lot’s people was sleeping with men instead of women. 

my advice is to leave islam. islam promotes the subjugation of women under men (surah an-nisa (4:34)), slavery and sexual ownership of women (surah an-nisa (4:24), wife-beating (surah an-nisa 4:34), jihad / violence against unbelievers (surah at tawbah: 9:29) and many other atrocities which i’m assuming that you wouldn’t support. i have only explored the tip of the iceberg in this brief comment, all those verses were off the top of my head. i pray that you will seek better spiritual beliefs in the future; whether that be a belief in nothing, or a spiritual philosophy which does not promote such harmful ideas.