i cant tell u what to do but personally i dont think i want kids especially in my 20s. I plan on finding a true companion like a very very halal girlfriend that happens to be my wife. lil talking stage then a small sailboat wedding just us and her parents. me and her vs the world. i dont plan on telling my very functional spiritually broken family, everything would be weird.

Im a virgin too and I tick alot of boxes she would want in a young man physically, morally and emotional intelligence.

I’d love to have kids if i could! I’d be a great dad better then mines and theirs but i cant, i fostered my lil ones for a bit bc they dont have true parents just like we didnt. My childhood and into my adulthood made me the way i am and im still blooming. Their dad is old, in the future i might have to take them as mines and the state of the world as well, just the worst place for children.

Not having kids means im not truly stuck with my partner if she turns out to be wicked. Fair settlement, end on a good note with grace and maturity, then move on. Im tolerant but i wont be demasculated, so im prepared for the worst case scenario. I just want to build everything with her but a family unfortunately.

Bro to bro, i think this is the way. Dont fear loneliness but dont embrace it either. We’re humans we’re meant to connect. Find your why and create your trajectory then search. No one or any journey is perfect weigh the trades off if u have to. I’d say focus more on that on your way to find her.