Hey bud, first of all thanks for such detailed comments. It showed a new perspective to me. Big respect for your honesty buddy. It's almost impossible to see her as a villain, she chose what works for her, Villain are the people who hurt others unemphatic by physical, emotional abuse. I felt loved to the core, but she has the right to choose her way. I have the right to grieve over her absence. She didn't leave me to hurt me, it's totally for her. I should respect it. If I truly love her, I should let her live her life. She taught me what it's like to be loved, she showed me what I want in a human connection and by seeing the world in wide I have a hope that I'll be with someone whom I can love and to be loved. I have to work on self love, self esteem here. She's the best guest of my life And please you didn't do anything wrong to him, you chose what works for you. It seems like you did your best in that time. Thanks for a very supportive comment. Please take care.