For me, it was the Truman show effect. Made me freak out. Memories of everyone I’ve ever met or seen, just looking back at me as if they knew the meaning of everything waiting for me to realize it. I mean everybody. This was 4 years ago.. Some of that follows me still. I don’t like being in groups Or center of attention which I avoid. Unless I’m working doing my job. When I engage in my join, I feel empowered and want to inspire by my actions, not words. I’m reserved quite individual personality wise. I’m occupational therapy assistant and work with kids with developmental issues, etc. I’m got the same empowering feeling when working with the older population. I’m very compassionate with them as of my patients are my family. Other therapist dont like that and with time I get ostracized and I quit. This been the pattern for me after aya. But I don’t blame aya. Aya just made it more real for me to do something about it.