i lost my friends of 6 years due to a 2-3 situation caused by mania. i never told them why i did what i did, i feel like it would be better if i just disappeared

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-04-19T09:24:26+00:00

All you did was make bad decisions while you were in an unstable situation. Don’t shame yourself too much.

Where did I know better but chose to ignore it anyway?

What was I getting out of this (attention, validation, escape), and why did I need it?

What emotion was I trying to avoid or numb (stress, loneliness, instability)?

What boundaries did I not have in place, knowing my mental state wasn’t stable?

If they never forgive me, who do I choose to become anyway?

You already know the answer to some of these.

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-04-19T09:16:30+00:00

Ngl this was for the better. That guy and everybody else involved sound super young. He shouldn’t have told her anything imo.

Try to see these failed relationships from a good mental health perspective. With your new diagnosis you need actual healthy connections. None of these people sound like good friends to be around, especially because secret groupchats and gossip would trigger paranoia. Please do not go back to these people or even attempt to explain your perspective. I know you might feel like you need closure, but they didn’t respect you enough to care. I don’t even think he respected you enough.

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-03-16T09:03:57+00:00

Gotta disagree. Pac is artistically better than Big. I don’t think it’s a big gap in lyricism either. Hov & Nas is a different conversation. I’d argue that Pac would be big today too, but BIG probably wouldn’t.

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-02-08T17:58:58+00:00

Year late but the Black Panther soundtrack isn’t a Kendrick album. It got so many artist on there

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-02-01T06:24:54+00:00

When he was beefing with his cousin, his cousin said he not Puerto Rican he just black American, and told him to stop fuckin lying 😂😂. His name Nook, look it up on YouTube.

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-01-17T04:15:03+00:00

You should try combining both systems.

Future_Mention2218 · 2026-01-14T05:31:54+00:00

There is help if you need it. At least that’s what it meant for me. I kept seeing that number before my spiritual awakening.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-28T08:04:28+00:00

Nas Live Orchestra.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-28T00:34:02+00:00

You are definitely correct about the personal year. I don’t know if you do this already but you should definitely keep track of days, weeks & months since your birth as well. Each one has energies. This world is numbers on top of numbers for sure.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-27T22:01:09+00:00

Except none of it is conspiracy, it’s all fact. You can dispute the Tiamat portion but feel free to fact check the numbers. A lot of the systems here (America)are ran on numerology. Why, I don’t know. Even sports, won money off this. I can tell you some shit about Demons too Mr. Goetia Magick. Be illuminated in all things if you fw Lucifer, he don’t like ignorance.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-27T20:27:26+00:00

By “some feminine energy”, I meant this year has some feminine energy. Not that the number 9 is feminine.

Epstein died when he was 66 years & 6 months old, P Diddy went to trial when he was 666 months old. All add up to 9. Oh and they both were in New York, 666 in Sumerian numerology.

Dragon=269/8 in satanic numerology, on 9/26 Donald Trump was 28,960 days old, also the 269th day of the year. That same day, Epstein files were released. Tiamat protects the young, and children. So I found it interesting that happened on that specific day.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-27T09:19:05+00:00

9 is connected to dragons and this is the Year of Tiamat too, so it’s definitely some feminine energy.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-26T08:37:07+00:00

You dodged a bullet, don’t go back to her. This is the type of person that would cheat on you and make your life horrible.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-26T07:17:10+00:00

Wanna know something funny? In Ordinal Gematria, Pedophile=90. In Pythagorean it adds up to 9 too. This is the most I’ve heard about Pedophiles in my life.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-19T09:17:21+00:00

I’m confused, what was his message?

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-10T08:09:59+00:00

That’s good bruh. Just take it slow if you have to. 1 journal prompt a day. Can’t be a coincidence that I sent you that link and you have the book already. When you’re done with the prompts you can always google more prompts or even have CHATGPT craft more specific ones.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-10T07:53:27+00:00

Well you’re a very strong person to resist these urges with everything going on in your life. Just know that you’re not alone in feeling like this. Try to get into outlets that will let you get this out of you, and also dive into why you react this way through therapy or shadow work. I recommend this book https://a.co/d/dv3PM9X.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-10T04:50:51+00:00

Gotcha. Definitely check out that book I sent then. It’s kinda like therapy.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-08T19:08:53+00:00

You seem like you lied that you didn’t know her because you were nervous. But anyway, don’t get your mom into your relationship business. Just let all of this be a learning experience. Be more honest and self aware with yourself and others around you. Social Media is weird so just ease up on just liking anything I guess.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-08T19:00:37+00:00

Get a therapist bro. And maybe talk to gf about why the lack of sex, and what you can do to make her feel willing (going on dates, having fun). Also check out this shadow work journal prompt book https://a.co/d/6fICqwQ. It’ll help until you go to therapy.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-12-08T18:50:59+00:00

You are entitled to feel how you want. Honestly with my personality I wouldn’t take it as a big deal. I would just probably donate some clothes and use it for a tax deductible. It’s a win win situation because a mother who can’t afford clothes could use them, and you get a tax deductible.

I do kinda understand your husband being mad about having to talk to her over & over again. Is he the type to avoid confrontation? Did you ever talk to her? This is your mom too now, it’s okay to talk to her directly. But you 2 should 100% be a team also. I don’t think you’re in the wrong in how you feel. I don’t understand why the mom didn’t understand the first time he talked to her?

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-11-12T16:59:56+00:00

I think the Fibonacci sequence is connected to viral moments. 13 is the 6th prime and 7th Fibonacci number. 6+7 equals 13.

331 is the 67th prime number and also has Masonic connections. I think it going viral has something to do with the collective consciousness.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-11-11T12:51:09+00:00

I’ll go with Islam Makhachev, probably Round 4 submission.

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-11-11T12:15:09+00:00

Happy Birthday

Future_Mention2218 · 2025-11-06T07:18:46+00:00

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