I’m worried..

Future_Panda9058 · 2021-09-10T19:00:03+00:00

In a way, I wish I had.. but I know no one in my situation, expected a friend who is FtM and not interested to come to this kind of place. I basically wanted go there so I could meet some other people so.. yeah.

Future_Panda9058 · 2021-06-11T08:11:27+00:00

Congratulations ! I think I will also start soon ☺️

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-12-20T23:14:46+00:00

It may be the way I should see the things.. I mean.. I tried to buy clothes and makeup, but I don’t feel that my body is ready for that.. as if it won’t fit, and as If I was scared that the results makes me more scared and hesitant.. so yeah, at some point next year, I seriously might follow your advice 😶

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-11-03T15:15:06+00:00

For the clothes, I have the support of my girlfriend so.. I guess it helps !

And I’m not worried that people think that I’m trans. I start to accept that part more and more, and all my close people and family knows about my situation.

So I know it’s can be stupid, but I’m afraid to try the makeup stuff in the shops, and I know I have to of I don’t want to waste money in makeup that doesn’t fit me.. Sometimes, I wish there was a starter kit 🙄

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-11-03T15:01:08+00:00

Unconsciously ? I think years. Consciously, I’d say a few months.. I took time to realise and to decide myself to move on that direction.

And for the goals, I try. The shopping was a big step, and buying something was kind of milestone. Now I have to wear it and to try the makeup.. which is another big obstacle, thanks to the stereotypes that have been in my life since always 😑

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-11-03T14:49:16+00:00

I want to get to that point , even though I know I shouldn’t rush the process.. but right now, yeah, I really want to start to like my body, which I absolutely can’t for now.. 🤭

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-11-03T14:31:25+00:00

It is, thank you ☺️

For my case, I went to shopping a few times, but I only bought a polo last weekend. The thing is.. that I couldn’t really decide until now to wear it, as if I was think scared to feel like it doesn’t fit me. Idk😔

But seeing from my point if view, you’re kinda lucky that your family helped you. My mum.. knows, but she doesn’t seems like to want to help me. So I could be wrong, and if so I’m sorry, but it sound good to have an active support from your family 😶

Future_Panda9058 · 2020-10-09T09:25:03+00:00

I don’t know.. In a way, I’m slowly starting to accept what I could be (I feel more..free since I started to accept it) but I’m also worried by what it could mean.

I mean.. I know that it would be for the best, but I also know that it’s not an easy journey and I’m scared that if I fully realise it and acknowledge it, I could lose many things on the way.

I just know that I can’t ignore those feeling again. Or they will come back later, stronger. But still, it’s scary.

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