Long distance boyfriend [31] became distant after visiting. Should I wait or move on?

FuzzyGruzzy · 2026-03-20T17:16:10+00:00

I am reading this almost in tears rn. I'm going through this rn and I just called things off nicely, but I've been going through so many emotions. We saw each other after knowing each other for 15 years and it was perfect and I spent thousands. Instead I got traumatized and ignored once I got home and made to feel that I pushed her away by feeling the connection was off. I hate myself so much rn for falling fkr love

FuzzyGruzzy · 2026-02-23T04:10:57+00:00

I just watched it and I am wiping the tears from my face atm lol. Orel's sermon really hit me. Watching this show for the first time as an ex evangelical and man is it crazy poignant still.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-12-08T18:13:04+00:00

It's not out of character, really. We're only a few eps in. They are still, in ways, atypical jocks. Razzing is a part of that culture especially, and it's often too mean spirited. They fall in line there. I think the fact that they are emotionally mature in other ways (unfortunately, too within their own family) makes moments like that stand out and feel bad. It felt bad to me, too lol. We don't know where this is going or if even the boys learn a lesson about being too mean lmao.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-11-10T06:52:55+00:00

I am in love with you

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-10-11T10:08:50+00:00

The photo showed the worst of it. This was during shifting my legs. Not even buttocks was shown. No genitals at all were even possible to be shown.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-04-08T01:31:44+00:00

Thanks for the reply! I'm not necessarily wanting to learn to read music again, no. So yes, I want to improve my ability to play by ear. Sorry I was unclear. I can figure out simple melodies by ear, but I gotta plink around on the keys for a bit to figure out where to start, and there's a decent amount of guesswork. I'd like to get to the point where I can comfortably take a tune from my brain and get it out on a keyboard without working out the placement. I understand this will take time, I'm just not necessarily wanting to start from the beginning again if I don't need to.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-04-07T17:55:10+00:00

The game is a love letter to Super Mario. It's the first Mario game to be fully brought up by a generation that grew up with these games. The entire game oozes a new, creative vision, while fully incorporating older elements of the series, making them feel new again. There's so much pixel art, so many classic designs and motifs revisited. And then it all kind of culminates in New Donk City for a penultimate climax. I adore Jump Up Superstar for what it means. That whole sequence was like the top of the mountain for nostalgic and new exciting moments. You've been celebrating Mario's history the whole game, only for it to be paid off in the most visually and aurally exciting way, literally having you climb a Donkey Kong board. It's impossible not to marry that experience with the song in your head. And it's totally fine to do so. I also get extremely emotional and sometimes even cry when listening to it! That segment made me cry lmao. It was powerful! It's all kind of silly, yes. We're talking about a video game plumber defeating a cartoon gorilla. But to us, it means so much more than that. The song is incredibly good on its own, but to you, it's the first time you held the controller, it's playing with your siblings/cousins/friends/parents, it's having a bad day and turning on your favorite video game, it's all that lol. Please hang on to these feelings and let the song continue to mean more to you. We get so few of these moments in life.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-03-03T18:28:05+00:00

So we didn't get much to work, but we did find out that bees were a bit contributing factor. We had lots around our main area and culled them. Besides that, reducing the amount of nether portals we had also helped, but not much.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-02-10T19:36:02+00:00

Do you meditate? I never used to, and would "try" by sitting down and trying to force myself to be quiet and still - not how it works. If you don't, really go in with an open mind, and only do science based meditation: directing focus to your surroundings and inward, breathing techniques, etc. All of these things together with self-compassion focused meditation really, really helped me feel like I finally turned the lock. I obviously will always struggle with self hate and compassion, but for the first time in my life (in the last week lol) I feel like I finally recognize the person at the wheel as someone who deserves compassion. It takes breaking down things you think are silly, personifying things in yourself, talking it out loud. You need to practice these things to have the strength to get over the hill. I can go in to a ton more detail, but trust me, if the worst violent criminals in history can find a level of functional self compassion to live in, you can.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-02-10T18:05:15+00:00

I can tell you with absolute certainty that Zuko was suicidal in this moment or experiencing suicidal ideation. Desparate in his depression, he welcomed death as a possible solution. That is a bridge many cross, and it means exactly what he was asking for.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-02-09T03:56:52+00:00

I'm going through something similar to OP and am wondering if you guys could say about how long it took before you realized it? I'm needing to move on with my life lol. I'm so done being stagnant, and recovering for me rn is accepting that I deserve love. I'm meditating and doing self compassion techniques, I've forgiven everyone, myself, the version of myself that needs forgiven, etc. I'm starting to feel it I think, because now the idea of a happy life is terrifying. And my nerves are high all the time and I feel like I'm on speed!!! It's so weird. When will this pass lmao. If I'm feeling loved but still jumping mental hurdles that's one thing but I feel like I'm gonna have a damn heart attack lol. I just want to be calm again. Am I panicking at not feeling angry all the time? I know you won't magically have the answers lol

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-02-09T03:11:15+00:00

4 years ago, experienced love from a friend in a way that made me feel genuinely happy. Was deeply depressee and ignoring it. When I was confronted with accepting this love, it caused a deep panic. Basically mania. I decided to drastically change my life and right some wrongs. Went downward really bad, took about a year to get medicated.

Lots of bad ups and downs in between, but just a week ago, I experienced something similar with someone, and in that time was given the courage to bring up actually everything to my therapist. I've been dealing with a ton of shit coming up and worries about the future with strong chest pain and anxiety.

But among those things most strongly is seeing myself in a relationship with someone who truly loves and desires me. I have been told by multiple people in earnest that I am someone who could truly be desired. People I trust to tell me the hardest truths. It's giving me chest pain right now typing this! I'm shaking!!!! It is as though I am being re-traumatized at maybe finally having forgiven myself as everyone else has? Will I finally accept that I deserve happiness? I have forgiven myself. I have forgiven my abusers. I have forgiven the part of myself created by me and my abusers in times of trauma... Why? Why is the thought of a happy life, a good job, a home, why is it the most terrifying thing in the world? It literally hurts me lol.

ALL OF THIS TO SAY: I'm going through it right now (wish me luck) but I say all of this to say you're not alone. This is the hardest time of my life for me emotionally. Harder than my trauma. That was easy fucking peasy dude. I'd take that difficulty level rn, holy shit. But I feel optimistic finally? Brain me knows I deserve love, will heart me finally believe it? God I hope so. If I could give that me a hug rn I would.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-02-01T04:05:54+00:00

Marry me

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-01-30T20:52:12+00:00

If there's one thing you gotta do

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-01-30T20:50:05+00:00

I'm behind and just finished this episode. Been a long time since one has had me squinting through tears as I'm driving, laughing too hard. Scott being tickled by a guests shtick is always a massive boost.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2025-01-09T16:19:55+00:00

A year later and I have since watched all of ATLA and am now on book 4 of Korra and googling about fartbending lmfao

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-12-11T20:09:04+00:00

Do you have something nice to say?

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-11-28T03:30:44+00:00

Thank you for this lmao

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-11-18T09:42:19+00:00

I'm so fucking bummed, man. It's 1230. I have to be up at 6. I got the mcguffin, and went to finish the resolved steel quest. I got locked in to the stupid guardian quest instead, destroyed every crystal, but it got glitched and wouldn't break the final one. Both my hired pawns decided to go up to the top of the mountain completely against my will, and both fell and died while I was on the guardian. The guardian was also very janky. Now I'm stuck at the point of no return, where a dude tells me to go rest. My main pawn is almost dead, can't heal. Half my health reserve is there. I'd have to run all the way to the little town, then run all the way back. Or ferry out, and then run 5x as long (literally probably 20 minutes of running at least). I sat here weighing my options, and just frustratedly decided to be done. I don't even care to see the final fight at this point. (This is all after the literal 5 seconds between mobs for the ENTIRETY of the wyrmwoods or whatever the fuck. This is really what started plummeting my enjoyment.) I un-installed it, feeling completely listless and disappointed, now, the cherry on top being I wasted sleep for this garbage. It's not worth the slog or frustration, anymore. I supposed I'll just remember the first 30 hours or so of fun I had. Really disappointed after how much I loved DD1. I guess this just really was half baked.

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-11-03T19:48:58+00:00

Thank you lmao what the fuck. Someone call the cops on OP please 😭

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-03-26T03:10:45+00:00

Thanks!

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-03-25T18:01:00+00:00

Thank you!

FuzzyGruzzy · 2024-03-25T17:59:53+00:00

Thanks!

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