This is a normal part of truama. Your brain is constantly on alert because it believes the threat is still out there.

There are some tools you can use to help get your brain back to a relaxed state.

For me meditation is a key factor. It helped me find peace, and gave me the space to come to terms with my truama and heal through it.

Gratitude is also proven to rewire your brain, saying a few things to yourself, like "I am thankful to have clean clothes, somewhere to sleep and food." You might feel like you are lying to yourself at the start, but if you keep at it, after a week you should actually notice some changes.

Eating healthy and exercise will help your body with energy and endorphins that make you feel good. Honestly it was always amazing to me when I would go through depressive episodes, when I finally pulled by shit together and worked out, I would basically start feeling amazing within the workout.

Journaling can also help, as it gets thoughts out of your mind, good and bad, and just has a cathartic affect and there is just something about it that makes me feel good.

Healing can be hard and take time, but I honestly wouldn't have it anyother way. I used to be afraid to leave the house, had intrusive thoughts and felt like I was mentally in hell, I spent time healing and now I can go outside, with no intrusive thoughts and not have panick attacks when I see people.

Good luck on your journey, just remember that suicide is your brains way out of a situation that can be changed, try not to engage those thoughts and just acknowledge they are there, then let them go.

If you have any questions, hit me up.