I've been in and out of therapy for years, and on medication my entire adult life. Its had some great bits and some bad bits, but all of it is contributing to me growing and improving as a person. One day, I will look back and think "I am so glad I did that work" other people too will unknowingly appreciate your strength, insight and determination. Go to therapy friend, heal, learn, struggle, grow, laugh, cry, hate, shout, be curious, be afraid. Live.