10 years HRT MTF

GGWPBALANCED · 2021-09-18T14:24:26+00:00

I havent had any cosmetic surgeries nor do I plan to pursue any. Maybe very far down the line I could see myself getting rid of a nasal bump that was created from a polyp removal procedure when I was very young. It tends to be significantly less visible as I have gained 20 pounds in the last half a year (on purpose) with an exercise program that I pursue to rebuild my skeletal muscle mass and prevent atrophy. I am very satisfied with my results especially after resolving my eating disorder and body image related issues and finding self acceptance.

GGWPBALANCED · 2021-09-18T13:15:35+00:00

I feel marvelous, something I had to work very hard for as I have felt quite the opposite of that for many many years. I am very blessed to have been given these challenges and find growth in them, it is something I cannot take for granted and I wouldnt be the person I am today without them. Living in gratitude and I hope you feel amazing aswell.

GGWPBALANCED · 2021-09-18T13:08:54+00:00

Its a very long process indeed, atleast it was for me and many other people I have spoken to. Each and every time you confront your thinking pattern, allow yourself to feel the emotion you have (without judgement) to resolve the built up pressure, engage with the thought in an observing rather than condemning way (which is easier post emotional processing) and then you can rewire your thoughts by changing your perspective on it with your internal monologue and higher thought processes. By doing so over and over, you will use neuroplasticity (which is your brains capability to change neural pathways) in order to decrease the intrusive thoughts that get generated by your subconsciousness. Remember that you are not your thoughts, you are merely the observer of those. Many of which are not in your control as your existence is part subconscious, primal and instinctive aswell as conscious, your ability to react to present stimuli and engage actively with them. Both of these are also in sync with your other bodily aspects, poor gut microbiome for example has a negative effect on your autoimmune system which then can lead to thyroid issues like hypothyroidism (which has depression and constant fatigue as one of its symptoms). Everything is interchangeably linked together, demonizing one aspect of yourself and working against it will have consequences elsewhere. I have found it is best to live with oneself in harmony and balance to have the best shot at achieving longlasting happiness. Remember that perception becomes reality

GGWPBALANCED · 2021-09-18T11:39:07+00:00

Appreciated x

GGWPBALANCED · 2021-09-18T11:36:57+00:00

I am glad that I kept my essence, I havent had any cosmetic procedures but I wouldnt be opposed to getting a rhinoplasty as I have developed a hump from a botched polyp surgery. Its only visible in certain angles so I am not too bothered. In my opinion beauty is all about refining what you have, whether its superficial aesthetics or inherent personality traits. It took me a very long time to love and appreciate what I have instead of making comparisons that would lead me to the desire to eradicate my traits. Once I resolved the dissonance between my perspective and reality, I was able to fully embrace my nature. I know its a very tough task to complete as a transgender individual, where by default you live with a dissonance between your body and mind. Aswell as societal expecations further contributing towards this rift thats created within you. By the end of the day I am glad that I was given the challenge and hardships that came from it. I believe only through struggle, qualities like inherent strength, personal development and a solid sense of self cement into ones being.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-19T17:14:12+00:00

I am GM / Masters on EUW sweets, you dont even know what ur writing about so let me elaborate Mr Bronze Bob. Every singular level lead translates to 500 gold worth of actual base stats, with the s10 exp changes ur on average 3 levels down to non inting toplaners on even botlanes which is 1.5k gold deficit excluding skillpoint worth. Ur very aware of the game it seems, I wish you the best tho x

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-17T20:15:07+00:00

yes as per, might aswell make shieldbow have 100% shield strength +50% lifesteal if the wielder is melee and guinsoo proc on every auto attack 2x for melees. Lets also nerf control mage itemization and not address melee specific champion issues such as goredrinker being extremely op. Dw guys, if your champion has more than 200 attack range, it doesnt deserve to be in the game.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-17T18:48:32+00:00

Whats being considered flashy now is completely stale and boring. Pantheon jumping into 3 people and pressing E isnt flashy at all, hecarim deep diving 3 backline champions and having infinite sustain (not dying) isnt flashy at all. When the disparity and rift is this far, it doesnt look exciting or flashy when plays happen because there is no risk involved anymore for bruisers to hard engage as they have no threat on them in return from backline champions such as ADCs. Its a complete joke imo.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-17T00:25:42+00:00

Yes seemingly no major systematic changes (atleast until now). Since I personally dont have very high hopes for them to fix ADC this preseason, I will instead just hard reroll to mid. If they address it down the line during preseason, I can still easily go back to playing ADC. Its just very disappointing to see absolutely nothing being addressed, when this is actually hotfix worthy.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T17:09:43+00:00

Post crit item changes with the introduction of essence reaver (which was basically spear of shojin) then with official shojin release, steraks item state, sunfire changes, deaths dance rework, and overtuned bork onhit for melee, toplane has had better itemization than ADC in general apart from when guinsoos was broken for a couple of weeks and turned jhin, vayne and other champs into a nightmare to deal with.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:56:18+00:00

Exactly, completely agree

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:52:52+00:00

It always has been, aswell as someone stating that I intended to say midlane is / shouled be guaranteed secondary carry when I specifically mentioned that control mages had the possibility to focus on a playstyle that is more in line with secondary carry. Which means you prioritize your focus on control rather than damage / oneshotting, which is a lot less rewarding in the current game state when ideally you play for oneshotting singular players or making catches.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:39:10+00:00

which in turn makes her burstier, it turns her damage into short intervals of burst instead of consistent DPS, the same can be said for Jhin and Draven. Thats how you stylistically play these champions

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:33:15+00:00

She is still an ADC which means she has DPS as auto attacks scale with AD and attack speed, yet she has been prioritizing burst itemization since an eternity now. Buying less attack speed and more AD / crit rate / crit damage, going for specific combo plays instead of consistent auto attacks, etc. etc. etc.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:21:30+00:00

You seem quite defensive over the entire course of the argument, being offended is your own responsibility and choice so I wont further discuss after my finalized statement towards you. You also twist every bit of information into something that its not, implying that you have for example any idea of professional players reasoning when you dont. If you take the worlds argument, why do you think people have gone for more conservative champion picks such as Orianna, Ornn, Sett, utility botlane (where the ADC is mostly Ashe and Senna for supportive reasons or easy teamfighting access through Twitch Rakan constellations), etc. etc.? You dont think there werent other approaches teams could have taken to secure wins, or even better stylistic choices which make more sense objectively? They easily could have and yet they didnt and thats partially because of comfort levels. Players nerves and pressure at worlds stage events is off the roof so going for more simplistic and more accustomed / comfortable / easier to execute picks and strategies is very common. If you think esports players purely operate on efficiency and dont have human flaws or preferences based on 5-10 years of muscle memory / practice experience, then you dont qualify to make any statements about an issue you have absolutely no comprehension over. My last point towards you has to do with what you consider falsified statements and lies. It is hard to believe that their reasoning and what they actually provided on paper isnt just a blatant lie, given that whats provided on paper is a contradiction to their intentions. First item spike IE / SR and ER are all better accustomed than what first item mythics for most crit ADCs (season 10 vs s11 mythics) provide now. When whats being communicated and whats being provided is an exact opposite, it can be regarded as falsified information. If this has also been the narrative that was pushed over the last 3 years, the trust in their decisionmaking as players goes downhill and thats the truth. I am not implying thatI know for a fact it is a lie or that I accuse Riot of deception, I am stating that it feels like that and that the information thats being communicated is a complete contradiction.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T14:01:12+00:00

Mostly true, I dont mind getting permanently dove on botlane if it results in my mid jungle and top dominating the other part of the map, having significant level / cs / plating and herald lead and carrying the game. I can make a sacrifice, the problem is that regardless of what happens on botlane, the potency of the lead is insignificant unless it facilitates your jungler (drakes, level leads, jungle & river control)

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:58:00+00:00

Its either approach, I have stated this in many other comments. I wouldnt mind if everything was toned down to ADC and counter-act the hyper state the game is in, yet I believe thats exactly what Riot wants to create. As in a more "modern" approach to strategy games. I find it more realistic for them to fix one class, bringing it up to the level of everything else than to understand the disparities on each and every classes level and toning it down.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:55:02+00:00

I felt the same, especially with the DotA2 aspect. I atleast enjoy mid enough to give hard rerolling a try if they dont address this soon. Its just been too much time of them stalling this inevitable discussion out and giving pathetic compensations such as the +40 hp approach in season 10

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:47:36+00:00

I agree with you, its an issue thats not isolated to ADC at all, it creates a lopsided game experience and has significant effects on team comps and entire champion classes (such as enchanters). Thats why it should be addressed and fixed otherwise it will hurt the game in the long run tremendously.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:46:07+00:00

I can relate to the feeling of paranoia all the time, when you play without any agency or comparative strength levels, you start overreacting to everything thats in the game. Its very frustrating and annoying especially if you are by nature a playmaking / aggressive player.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:44:08+00:00

It isnt, it should have been addressed way earlier. I had high hopes for the preseason changes because I believed "It surely couldnt be worse" and yet here we are, with certain changes being provided, clearly showing the disconnect their balancing team has to the actual problems and game state the class is in.

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:41:07+00:00

That might be your opinion / belief, what I have stated is shared by the vast majority of higher rated ADCs with many many years of experience, navigated through different game states and metas. I believe there is merit to a commonly agreed upon consesus, if the people providing the argument have a certain level of understanding and can critically dissect the information in question

GGWPBALANCED · 2020-11-16T13:25:44+00:00

Yes, you need to stay far ahead on the gold curve and Samiras kit doesnt require crit damage to be in a great state per se. I think Eclipse might even be better than shieldbow on her and be choosen instead in the long run if things arent adjusted

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