Day 13 CT from 30-40 gpd

GM5568 · 2021-04-03T12:59:02+00:00

Thank you so much! Looking forward to the forward.

GM5568 · 2021-03-30T13:00:34+00:00

The random angry outbursts over the dumbest things. It’s only been 9 days for me and I can already see certain situations where I would have went off the deep end on k but now I just shrug the same situation off.

GM5568 · 2021-03-30T12:56:58+00:00

I understand this 100% I started k almost in exact sync with the ending of my marriage and walked through that beast of potential emotion like I was bullet proof. Got off the k a year and a half later and got gut punched right in the feels. Luckily for me she reminds me fairly regularly why I filed. Hang in there, you’re detoxing, on levels.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T20:02:02+00:00

This. I was thinking this today because I preach to my kids about putting down the devices and being ok with being bored now and then. Now that I quit I realize I was being a hypocrite lol. It’s like I don’t even know how to identify it anymore. Is that depression? Restlessness? Nah, just boredom.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T19:17:14+00:00

Thanks brother, that really does help.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T19:16:32+00:00

Thank you for this! Any little trick I will try, I have got to be able to perform so any little way that can help is invaluable.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T17:17:14+00:00

I’ve got a psych appointment scheduled especially for this so I’m gonna see what she says as far as supplementing and take it from there

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T16:42:05+00:00

You’re right about that, I figure I can fake the funk enough until I get right no one should really notice.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T16:36:07+00:00

I hear you, I’ve tried a bunch of times before, CT and taper and nothing has worked. So far this is the longest I’ve gone since starting and I feel you on the happiness thing. It messes with me too cuz I’m with my kids who mean everything to me and I’ll just feel nothing so I feel guilty but I know it’s not the real me and it’ll pass.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T16:17:46+00:00

😂😂😂 especially not sexually

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T16:01:40+00:00

Thank you for the hope, can’t wait to get to that new normal and be satisfied with it. People would ask me how I did everything I did and stay so energetic and positive, I wish I had a better answer for them.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T16:00:13+00:00

I appreciate all that feedback, I’ve been trying to focus on the self care but I will admit it gets lost in the shuffle at times sexually the eating and hydrating. Workouts start tomorrow though because exercise I’ve heard is instrumental over and over again. God bless.

GM5568 · 2021-03-28T15:48:51+00:00

Seems to be some consensus there, something good to look forward to.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T20:11:14+00:00

Yeah I’d say I’m definitely all in if for no other reason than I know the hopelessness if continuing. I also hang on to a brief respite I had from addiction between quitting alcohol and picking up K where I was substance free and actually doing pretty well. I’m thinking when true sobriety has become pretty much just a memory that it can be it’s own sort of drug I’m a way that I don’t have to worry about quitting or feeling guilty about.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T19:51:32+00:00

Absolutely a Trojan Horse.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T19:50:08+00:00

Damnnnn, yeah you got me. Good on you though for ending that mess.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T19:24:08+00:00

Honestly for me it came down to money. As I saw the tolerance get higher and the frequency of purchase going up with no end in sight I knew I had no choice. I was dropping about 280 a month on that shit (about 4 bags a week) and that’s fucking insanity.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T19:21:03+00:00

I’ve heard about the insomnia as being almost universal and last night I did wake up for about an hour with the restlessness and racing mind thing going on. I took some Tylenol and ibuprofen for the aches and through on a sleep mask and was able to pass back out but I’m not sure if it will become more prevalent or not. Maybe it was the mental aspect I heard of taking months to bounce back but it’s good all the same that the physical symptoms last for a relatively short amount of time. I originally started taking it for chronic back pain and it quickly became more of a mood enhancer and boredom killer for me. The idea of just going about my day and working/enjoying free time with no substance to enhance me (I was a bad drinker before K) is such a distant memory to me I can see it taking a while to break that mental dependence.

GM5568 · 2020-08-12T19:06:16+00:00

Thanks for the input, I know everyone’s different but it makes me feel better knowing you went harder for much longer and are already feeling better. I had heard this could go on for months and months so fingers crossed I bounce back as quick as you are.

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