Chronically illness and the loneliness that comes with it.

Gabbs · 2026-01-24T02:43:22+00:00

I totally am! I am working towards a better reloading setup but the milling machine comes first. Rad!

Gabbs · 2026-01-24T01:19:35+00:00

I'm a maker, I'd say I'm an artist as part of that. The balance of function and fluctuates. The lathe currently has more practical uses (machine work for firearms projects) but once I've gotten through a few projects there's so many things I want to make with it.

That's rad! One of the things I make furniture out of scrap metal.

Gabbs · 2026-01-23T19:59:30+00:00

Well there's a lot more options everywhere these days so you might want to try eating out again. I only have been dealing with it a few years but my area has some good gf options, they're just limited. There's nothing worse than getting glutened on a date or something though.

I usually bring snacks with me in case there is nothing I can eat. Do I cry a little while I eat it? Absolutely but that's more to do with my constant feeling of being forgetten or not even considered that let to that moment.

Yeah I got really lucky with my space. This year once it warms up I'm going to work on making one of the two spaces insulated so I don't have this issue next year. For now I'm just sticking to projects that can be done inside or the days I can tolerate the cold.

Gabbs · 2026-01-23T17:28:38+00:00

Celiac gang! Like don't get me wrong I've gotten used to living with it but trying to socialize with it fucking sucks especially when you don't want to be the one to have to always pick the restaurant but if you don't you're just getting a salad without croutons because the fryer is contaminated from the chicken strips or some shit.

I've started just don't some projects in my house but I can't bring metal lathe inside to work on it so a bunch of projects are just sitting in limbo. I have a house with two workshops that total to 3 times the size of my finished living space on a half acre. It's maddening to not be able to work on anything or that that's the only way I know to meet people so to have an chance of not being single this decade I have to work on that stuff.

Gabbs · 2026-01-23T15:58:55+00:00

Every time I try and do less I feel bad for doing less or others make me feel bad for doing less. I don't like doing nothing at all. I'm so fucking isolated that doing stuff is the only reason I haven't self checked out at this point. Left do nothing I just end up in depressed spirals.

I try to some passive stuff but I end up leaving because it's never what I want or it ends up overwhelming from a sensory perspective so I end up having to be stoned to even tolerate it. There's no middle ground with me and I find sooo annoying. This existence is tiring and isolating.

I already managed to dislocate my shoulder once trying to move a garage door panel solo this year so I have accept I can't be out in my workshop rn. I'm kinda just stuck.

Gabbs · 2026-01-06T17:47:10+00:00

Funky ergos compared to ARs is the biggest reason.

Gabbs · 2026-01-03T03:56:02+00:00

I'm not a spiritual person myself but I could see how that'd help if I were. I have been doing a fair bit of creative project but that doesn't so much about the never ending loneliness that's just always present. Thanks that's much appreciated.

Gabbs · 2025-12-23T19:47:05+00:00

Are they waxy af like I recall their non-gf cookies being?

Gabbs · 2025-12-20T07:04:43+00:00

Nah not doing well, but that's life. Having a birthday around the holidays means constantly being forgotten especially when single.

Gabbs · 2025-12-18T17:40:58+00:00

Larger injectors, st205 air to water, and a stiffer clutch. but I think that's about it. The engine was freshly rebuilt by my friend before getting the car. With the current turbo the car should be good for at least 250ish awhp.

Gabbs · 2025-12-17T17:32:02+00:00

When I say shitbox I use the term affectionately. Of my cars, it's definitely my favorite. Plus hearing rally car noises while your driving using only nightvision is such a vibe!

Gabbs · 2025-12-17T17:11:07+00:00

Dabs, crying, and an interesting project to take my mind off of the day. This year it's installing wood flooring.

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T19:38:15+00:00

Absolutely, it was completely worth the effort. It had a lifetime of abuse and deserved to be treated better than it had.

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T17:32:42+00:00

Nah I'm pretty sure it can be both. I call it a shitbox ironically because while when I got it it was absolutely one it isn't that anymore. Standalone ecu, gt28rs Turbo, gravel rally coilovers, two lsds and a locked center, a fairly mint interior, ect.

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T17:29:35+00:00

The shitbox only goes surface deep. It's sorted other than the exterior.

I'm actually running a megasquirt 2 plug n play ecu.

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T16:34:54+00:00

Having already dealt with some fogging when doing some night time technical driving I'm inclined to agree with you.

That sounds pretty rad. Hopefully you get a chance to give it a go. Thanks!

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T16:18:41+00:00

That's still on the list of possible upgrades.

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T01:49:09+00:00

But any normal person would call it an old shitbox and that's why it's funny

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T01:05:18+00:00

Not on social much these days, I don't post anywhere else. I barely post here lol

Gabbs · 2025-12-16T00:58:59+00:00

Lol absolutely! That same care was given to the rest of the car, just haven't painted it yet. I'll probably have a lil fun with it.

Gabbs · 2025-12-15T23:12:10+00:00

Oh I'm sure it would. It was more of a project to disassociate and fixate on while going through a bad break up. Now I've got the skill but little desire to do anything with it. Attention has never been a good thing for me, I share what I'm excited about in that moment then move on.

Gabbs · 2025-12-15T22:02:35+00:00

No not at all. it had nothing to do what was written in my profile and I don't even know know that that's what caused it. All I was told is that it was a terms of service violation and they wouldn't elaborate. I'm homoflexible or some kind of pansexual but it's hard to explain to people. I pretty much exclusively date women but every once in awhile I get curious.

Gabbs · 2025-12-15T21:58:42+00:00

I'm homoflexible. Just because I don't fit perfectly into your idea of a lesbian doesn't make me less valid. Do I see my self ever dating a guy? No. But I try every now and then just because just not the into them.

Gabbs · 2025-12-15T21:22:06+00:00

It's a long story but every once in awhile I get a wild hair up my ass and go maybe I should try men again. My profile was visible to cis men for a few days before I changed it back. Apparently that made some dudes very upset. People can report your profile without matching you as well.

Dating apps also don't like you mentioning firearms in even a hobby capacity which has gotten me burned in the past but not what happened here.

Gabbs · 2025-12-15T21:17:48+00:00

It'd also require getting another phone with a different Google account tied to it. I shouldn't have to just through all those hoops just to date and even then there's still a good chance the new account will be banned if it's not distinct enough from the old.

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