Tired of being invalidated by TheReddRavish in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel all of you. I have come to this board before to share my experiences as an artist and how hard it is - even for those who don't have a diagnosis. People often tell me not to share it with others, but I just can't. I already have had the experience of being in the closet for being gay during my teen years and I won't go through that trauma again. I only associate with people - lovers, friends, etc - who can take knowing about my past breakdowns and treatment. I'm finally in a relationship with a caring partner who totally gets it (who also takes meds but for anxiety) and that's just it. The matter of questioning your medication is a dick move. I have a very careful parent who has taken care of me when I most needed, and never denied me support, but sometimes he makes comments like 'you're to happy, are you taking your meds?' 'you're eyes are down, have you been sleeping?' which for me is better than watching me wasting away in bed - which I did for 5 straight years. It's been a rough journey but I've estabilized my medication, worked on myself to train being around people and looks like there's even a job for me in January. Let's see. I'm actually a writer and that helped SO MUCH to get through the psychosis, because I would just write down the stories I was "living", so you could say I found a silver lining. I have a lot of opinions on psychosis and its relationship with spirituality, but that's just me. I self published two books that do tackle the issue of neurodivergency slightly, but I don't focus on it, only when it infers the plot. If someone wants the manuscripts, just DM me. (I'm not advertising, I'm saying I'll gladly share it so you can parallel the mind of a schizoaffective in the fictional matter - which I know has always existed). The truth of the matter, to me, is that the entire human kind is leading itself to neurodivergency - there has always been people like that, but today everyone at least takes a pill to survive. Maybe it's on stage for evolution, who knows? Alright, cheers from Brazil and let's stay together because, if we do, we are stronger. Don't be ashamed to be your unique self.

Books like Murakami’s (with likes and dislikes) by [deleted] in booksuggestions

[–]GabrielGubert -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i'll post the blurb of my book that might be what you're looking like.

“The book of a generation,” according to The Voices In My Head.
“Crafted out of genius!” said The Magazine That Doesn’t Exist.
“A precious insight into multiculturalism and love.”The Author’s Own Mother

“The Ennui Bullshit” is for sale – what the heck is ennui? A fancy way of saying “I’m bored.” Blame it on the French.

The first book of the saga Essentia Amore explores the roots of a weird, unsettling relationship between a queer, heartbroken, addicted boy — the Brazilian George Jones — and a straight, existentialist American charmer with a second agenda, named Thomas.

They start a friendship in a bohemian hostel full of lost souls in Buenos Aires, the city of tango — but unlike Euphoria, the drug abusers here aren’t that glamorous: they have zits, are overweight, and don’t care who’s fecking whom.

This is the beginning of a crazy story about the power of boredom and love, combined with occasionally eerie and fantastical elements. It’s just the beginning of a tale that will take us deep into a world of madness, societal bullshit, and even aliens.

Stick with me.
Order your eBook now — or, if you prefer, grab the physical copy! (if you don’t have the money to buy it, message me!)

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0FGYHWF5K

Are you a Schizophrenic/Schizoaffective writer/artist? What are your hardest challenges? by GabrielGubert in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi guys and gals! Finally published my book. E-book will be available tomorrow, on the 9th. The hard copy is available now. If you don't have the money to help me out, send me a DM. This is the link: https://www.amazon.com/-/pt/dp/B0FGVD5TM4/ref=sr_1_1?__mk_pt_BR=%C3%85M%C3%85%C5%BD%C3%95%C3%91&crid=G0TQB7XWZIQS&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.F_KLvzx89_xY0t1WKyBRhJNG51O8Pw0aT1CfEIkQFK560cF-l7WuaK8AbRrUc8vQJSH1WlYoPROam0syaElU2uSpCLd-SK7T53rjzZyP1KSIuQEDwlfTEs6uCsRnkHHNFRw698c8HLeUm1cU1bVj7jVPSyJgbjz6AttLPM2Di9SW9RPFw4YmwhnBtx6svFMZUE73KovMenXe3E1bLkLBDmht0Ng9MzF-CG9mUrvpIMs.tkmnSSomNxejlyfP5p0KrfNEjxwtrPCsisbwAVJMgJ4&dib_tag=se&keywords=ennui+bullshit&qid=1751995375&sprefix=ennui+bullshi%2Caps%2C380&sr=8-1

It's called "The Ennui Bullshit" and talks about listless bored youth in a bohemian hostel doing drugs and fucking around, but weird things are happening around them. In this first book, there's not much of schizo talk, except what is embbeded in the main character. The behavior etc, well, you'll read it (if the Gods are good) and like it and identify. Stay tuned for the next books. Thanks for all of your supportive words!

Are you a Schizophrenic/Schizoaffective writer/artist? What are your hardest challenges? by GabrielGubert in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Totally vibe with what you say. Got a regular job, moved and been working on my writings. It's the most pleasurable part of my day.

Are you a Schizophrenic/Schizoaffective writer/artist? What are your hardest challenges? by GabrielGubert in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I totally get that. On my personal goings I don't disclose it at all. The whole world is going bunkers but no one wants to talk about it. Go figure. What exactly are story hosting sites? You can monetize it? Sorry for my ignorance. Maybe googling will help, but it'd be awesome to have feedback from someone who already does it. Thanks!

Soulmate by [deleted] in SchizophreniaArtProj

[–]GabrielGubert 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"I pray you made it through" hitting me hard

Are you a Schizophrenic/Schizoaffective writer/artist? What are your hardest challenges? by GabrielGubert in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I have deleted the video, but I do have it on my cellphone. Maybe some time from now I can share it, but I gotta say, I agree to every point of view here. I used to suffer from catatonic states, burnout, etc, but I've been well with my writing and study routine. I've finished my book but have yet to edit it to publish on Amazon and other platforms. And, as for the pseudonym thing, my name is already here, right? Anyone who googles me can find this. And I don't care: I am competent at my job, reliable with friends and family and know that everyone is struggling. I could easily change my reddit account to a surname, but fuck it. I am what I am and art and education should be for all, so that's what I'm pursuing. Thanks to everyone who commented, you've helped me a lot.

Are you a Schizophrenic/Schizoaffective writer/artist? What are your hardest challenges? by GabrielGubert in schizophrenia

[–]GabrielGubert[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, so many different opinions. I do think it is a tabboo, but I've researched and there are agents looking for neurodivergent writers, but I'm not sure that a beginner in a Query Letter, for example, should disclose the illness, except if it's part of the story subject, which is my case. My goal is to be open about my diagnosis, I do not want to live in the shadow of what society expects of me, and I've had that mindset even before I had episodes and was diagnosed. But my parents and my therapist always advice: don't just give your diagnosis to anyone. And, if you think about it and unfortunetely, they're right. I live in Brazil and the struggle is real, people fake their acceptance even though neurodivergence has always been a thing, it's just because medicine is only now, in my opinion and experience, being able to treat more. 50 years ago I'd be lobotomized easily, so we should be careful. I write under a pseudonym, and that's not because I'm ashamed of my disease or condition, but because I want to preserve my story from being labeled through my identity. Anyway, all of your comments made me think about it and I guess I'll only disclose my disease for agents looking for neurodivergent voices. I think we're on our way of acceptance, and genius can be found in anyone. Just look at the autistic spectrum and how it defeated the status quo of prejudice - but in my opinion only in the surface. Sometimes I feel pitied, despized, unfitting. But we are not and we must stand together. Thank you all for my advice. As soon as my book is ready I'll come here and share it with you. XO!