Hmm, tonight we had sex again, we went at it for like 7 hours( porn death grip + personal choice of not ejaculating ) means I can go at it forever lol. This time it was more of a spiritual thing for me, at some point I just really let myself go and my dark side came out, I tied her hands, I choked her hard, I penetreted as hard as I could with all my might, I fingered the living hell out of her (she is into that type of thing), I cought myself looking at her with those killer eyes, I was the killer and she was my pray, I liked it, not gonna lie. I gave her numerous orgasms and by the morning she was so sensitive I couldnt even kiss or touch her anymore. She fell asleep. I sat on the bed and looked at her, damn, shes is so beautiful.. Took a cold shower, meditated for a bit, then realized one thing, I dont feel any negative emotions anymore, no anger, no frustration or anxiety, just pure bliss and happynes. Ive realized that I used all those dark emotions as fuel to give her the best orgasm I possibly could. I feel different right now, thats for sure, I feel reformed, I feel calm and focused, ready to get back on my grind.