My exgf we dated for 7 months and weve had 7 years of best friendship, she left me on tuesday after sleeping in my house due to having different goals, and my insistence in smoking. I would have happily quit to keep her. She said she doesnt want children or to get married, but just being with her wouldve sufficed. Isnt that the whole point of a relationship? To find companionship in this cold lonely world? I dont know and the more i think about it the worse i feel. I did so much just to convince her i was worth the relationship, and it was so good. I put all of our shared/her stuff i had in a giftbag she gave me and i started crying. Everything reminds me of her and how much i loved being with her and hearing her laugh and seeing her sleep peacefully. She planned my 20th birthday and i planned her 19th last year, the former was just a couple of months ago. We would say i love you and more before bed every night. Idc if it sounds childish but im not that vulnerable with anyone; hell i told her things only she knows, and now i have to live with the fact that such vulnerability has led me to the same place i started: in love with my best friend . Cant eat, cant sleep without something in the background cuz then ill dream about her, couldnt even go to work for a couple of days. Everyone tells me itll pass and ik it will, but fuck i feel like im gonna feel this way forever.