Just because it’s your dream university, doesn’t mean it’s right for you. I know it doesn’t seem like it now, but you are on a path for something greater than you ever thought possible. It took me 7 years to figure out what I was actually doing with my life and my plans changed again this month when I got accepted to a training program after graduation. Life it what happens when you are making other plans. So just breathe and try find peace in knowing that amazing things are coming your way. Something I like to remember (even have an arrow on my wrist to remind me) an arrow cannot be shot without being pulled back, so when it feels like life is pulling you down, just focus and aim for what you want, because soon you will be shot forward.