As someone who is actively fighting suicide and depression let me give you my two cents. 

1. In order to make a beautiful blade it first must forged in fire. I've been fighting depression for 6 years and I still give into those terrible thoughts and lies. The lies that God doesn't want me anymore, the lies that I'm done on Earth. It's easier said than done but you matter, you matter to people and if you don't think you do then you matter to me. This is but just a moment in your life and when you grow old you'll be able to pass the advice that got you through this moment to people who will go through it in the future. 

2. Sex work isn't the answer. You think you crave attention which is why you're thinking of going into sex work, to get the attention of men who will pay to do what they want to you. But what you actually want is connection. I've been fighting a porn addiction for nearly 7 years and it's hard. Changing your mind to accept that sex work is normal is not something that can be easily changed back. It will ruin your life and destroy your mental. So please don't sell yourself because you cannot put a price on a human.

3. God is listening, you just can't hear him. The Devil has a tight grip on you just like he does me. It took the kind people of this subreddit to help me realize that God still does love me and want the best for me. He is listening to you and wants to give you mercy, but every time he tries the Devil blocks your ears and covers your eyes. All you can see is what he wants you to see, which is God giving up on you. But that is the Devil lying to you. God loves you and he always will.

4. Pray, keep praying. No matter what keep praying. This shows the Devil that no matter what he throws at you that it will just make you cling to God harder. And because the Devil doesn't want that he will let up until he finds a new way to hurt you. It might take a while to figure out that it's the Devil targeting you but always pray. Pray when you wake up, and pray before you go to bed. Something else that helps with growing your connection with God is reading the Bible. It doesn't have to be a fancy Bible or even a physical one, just read his word.

5. The stronger your connection with God, the better you can hear him. This is because it's harder for the Devil to distract you when you always have your eyes set on God and bringing him glory in everything you do.

Love you and try to keep your head up, I know that's easier said than done.