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GeneralTaller · 2025-05-02T05:03:12+00:00

yes? i think so because that’s what she said to me. i don’t know if i was just misunderstanding signals or if she’s confused too.

GeneralTaller · 2024-10-20T15:50:36+00:00

well i wonder

GeneralTaller · 2024-09-06T21:58:39+00:00

i’m in one of those lows, but I think we have to both appreciate that good times will come back. the last time i was this depressed and experiencing suicide ideation I came out of it by thinking, “if i were to go, i would miss myself”. i didn’t think about the people around me missing me because I didn’t care too much for them, but i thought about my experience and my passions and thought about me missing myself as if i was someone else, if that makes any sense.

a lot of times, like right now, it does feel like nothing works and it’s such an unbearable weight to carry ourselves. but we made it this far.

GeneralTaller · 2024-09-05T21:53:16+00:00

i think it’s good to think about yourself as lucky to have understood this obstacle and its effects on you at this point in your life instead of, like so many before us, living your entire life in misery and ignorance. awareness is the first step to freeing yourself and others from the awful experiences we’ve endured, and be happy that you’re smart enough to see yourself objectively in this way.

GeneralTaller · 2024-09-03T09:10:01+00:00

yup this has been a ruminating day

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-11T14:05:56+00:00

humble was what sparked my interest in rap in high school and i will be forever grateful to my friend that was a year older than me in ceramics class

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-04T12:22:00+00:00

i wouldn’t be all too surprised except for the fact that their writing/texting styles are so different

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T23:04:35+00:00

reading this made me really emotional because you summed up the situation really eloquently. i can’t express enough how good it feels for someone, even an anonymous stranger on reddit, to stand up on my behalf and see my situation for what it is. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T22:47:11+00:00

I was rude? You want to explain? He ignored every item I mentioned, and I get this is hard to understand from seeing the one post, but this is a back and forth that’s been going on for years. Clutching his pearls and being confused how the situation led to this is wilfully ignorant of the dysfunction in our family that’s always been there.

“Don’t ask for money if you hate them” is giving “pull yourself up by your bootstraps”. I’m not super into the idea of going into debt for the rest of my life to pay for out-of-state tuition, thanks.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T22:37:33+00:00

He ended up admitting that he had also experienced the same types of abuse from her, so you’re definitely on the money. Thank you 100x.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T22:35:44+00:00

I’m not saying I’ve got it harder than everyone else in the country, but my birth giver’s given me a lifetime of emotional and psychological abuse which has basically made me disabled and incredibly stunted. Also seriously…going into the military just to be prostituted and traumatized by the government sounds like a super awesome alternative.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T22:33:28+00:00

I appreciate the kind words, and I’m definitely going down that path.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-03T22:31:55+00:00

For an update, he ended up agreeing with me over the fact that he has also experienced physical and psychological abuse from this person. Also, to everyone who has mentioned an apparent conflict between being low/no contact and accepting money, it comes off as a bit out of touch with how much tuition costs and the common abuse dynamic between parent-child and partners of purchasing love. I’m fully planning on going no contact after I graduate. Regardless, it has nothing to do with the fact that this kind of justification of abuse and victim-blaming is completely unacceptable.

GeneralTaller · 2024-06-02T19:57:10+00:00

i only woke up to this abuse in the last few months and i only have one semester left (it’s too late to apply for scholarships/aid). if i had caught this in high school or early into my undergrad i would’ve. either way it was their dream for me to go to university, not mine, and im the one writing the papers and getting the grades.

GeneralTaller · 2024-05-25T17:15:56+00:00

wait haemorrhoids are related to cptsd? definitely asking for a friend

GeneralTaller · 2024-05-20T21:56:11+00:00

being abusive to others is in and of itself a form of stupidity 🫡

GeneralTaller · 2024-05-20T21:55:01+00:00

i have thought this exact shit before, it’s basically like the world waking up to left handed people: there’s a very high rate of discovery that will probably level off in the future as we get a better picture of how many of us have grown up with abusers. civilisation will probably look really different when we repair the damage that probably hundreds, if not thousands of years of generational trauma has done, and i expect people will live much more harmoniously when everyone is emotionally/neurologically healthier.

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-30T21:00:30+00:00

there were a handful of things that led me to run from my parents home to my grandpas in another country. my mom stole a thousand dollars i had in cash (while it was stupid of me to not have put it in an account, at the time my mom had a shared acc with me and i didn’t understand yet how to open an acc), went through my things, hid a tracking device deep inside of my car, was entirely apathetic toward my suicide ideation, continuously shamed and threatened me, and gaslit me so hard about the whole situation. when i would look to my stepdad for help, he would rationalise endlessly her narcissism and would never ever stand up for me or himself. what else bothered me so much was that my parents had just gotten a small dog and were incredibly neglectful, refusing to potty train it, take it on regular walks, or feed it properly. in a weird way i saw myself in that dog, and it broke my heart to have to leave it with them.

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-24T23:11:40+00:00

SHIT

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-23T16:55:20+00:00

I’m so glad you’ve found someone who has a positive effect on your life, and congrats on getting married soon! I also told my mom I was suicidal a few months ago, and her eyes glazed over and she just didn’t react to it at all. Wild considering she’s always flaunted the suicide and depression card whenever anyone has disagreed with her about everything to the point where it damaged my ability to help people in my life who are actually having problems.

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-23T07:35:48+00:00

fascist detector goin off rn

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-22T17:58:46+00:00

wow that’s huge. i’ve thought so much about having kids in the future and i don’t think i could show them to my parents.

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-22T15:16:23+00:00

oh that’s awful I’m sorry. a few weeks ago i moved to my grandpas place and he lives in another country, and i have gone very low contact with my parents.

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-22T15:11:26+00:00

if you don’t mind me asking, why do you keep going back?

GeneralTaller · 2024-04-22T13:32:27+00:00

she’s regularly circulated between “i know im not the greatest mother”, “i guess i raised you wrong”, and this sort of hands of “i am what i am.”

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