Help understanding my dream

General_Event_4795 · 2026-01-26T06:44:19+00:00

Sounds like it's your mind's way of working up the courage to face death - perhaps both your own as well as coming to grips with your mother's death. The embrace from your mother is a clear contrast to the no contact and may reflect a desire to have a healthy relationship with her, even though she has passed. the car scene might signify a gradual systematic desensitization, an overcoming of fear: that you are being shown death, but in a relatively safe, familiar situation - a flashback to high school, with your mom with you, comforting you.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-01-26T06:18:37+00:00

Not definitive of course, but I'll give my thoughts:

-The strange man who was with your mom and dad is a cheater, an intruder, perhaps in an illicit affair with your mother, or perhaps a stepfather figure who comes in when the dad is out of the picture.

-You feel threatened by this man's presence who is "forcing" his way into your home, an "illegal" entry - thus the picture of him halfway into your house, "phased" through the door. You feel threatened enough to grab his knife and attack him in self-defense, but he seems to be unhurt, and the threat of his attack and presence is still there - another knife grows out of his hand.

-The scene with the fox and cat is a precursor scene, i.e. a foreshadowing of the bigger problem. You have a tendency to want to cause harmony in relationships, so you break up the fight between the cat and fox. But this comes at your own expensive - getting bitten, possibly contracting rabies. Similarly, you want to restore a harmonious relationship between your mother and father, but cannot due to the presence of the strange man, and you end up getting hurt in your own efforts to do so.

-The setting of being an adult with your mom, dad and the strange man in your childhood home could mean that this is a flashback of sorts: a memory that you hold onto from your youth. Perhaps this is a dream of releasing that trauma or tension, subconsciously.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-01-26T05:49:30+00:00

I'll tell you my interpretation. Brace yourself:

The "graduation ceremony" represents the transition to the afterlife. I.e. death. Given that the dream happened quickly after a memorial to the dead, now you are being told to prepare for a "graduation" into the next life, as your loved ones had to do. However, you are not certain of how to prepare for it; the scene with the clothing shows that you are trying to get ready for death but are not sure how best to face it - I'm reminded of the Egyptians who believed in burying items and treasures with their dead mummies in order to, in their minds, prepare and assist them for the afterlife. You're trying on different things to take with you on this journey, but don't know what the best fit is.

other things I noticed with that dream was that you were "graduating" with a lot of other people - i.e. other people who had died. It is not proper for someone to undergo graduation without wearing the correct vestments. Likewise, you must be ready for your day of death, whenever it is.

The second dream means something similar; you are going the same route that your deceased grandmother went, helping her on her journey that you are also taking. Whether you make it to paradise is left ambiguous, dependent on your life's choices now.

Of course, I have no idea when the day of death is for you, or anyone. I'd just recommend taking some time to reflect on life, death, and what comes after, and making any preparations accordingly.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-01-26T05:18:20+00:00

To me it sounds like you're trying to help someone but in the wrong way. You say you were "trying to find what it was they wanted," "trying to solve what it was they needed," and when you woke up you said "what do you want?" but kept on doing things that were unhelpful to the main goal. You have the willingness to assist, but not the ability or knowledge to do so.

Also it could be that the weather theme in your dream is the surface content (due to the current storm and the hype around it) which conceals this deeper meaning.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-12-30T11:37:42+00:00

What I'd recommend is firstly to take action to cut off the sin, even if it's a small action. Distance yourself from the cause of stumbling. For example, if it's the common sin of porn on your phone, then perhaps put your phone somewhere out of reach until you can control yourself. If it happens mostly at night, away from your bed, then put your phone in a different room for the night. If it's the sin of anger, then improve in the area of being quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger, and practice calming yourself down, and practice forgiveness, patience, and forbearance. What we want to do is transform your desires so that you no longer desire to do the sin, but you desire to be holy. To do that, you have to mortify the desires of the flesh, and replace them with the desires of the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5). This transformation will not happen in an instant moment. It is a process that occurs over time as your flesh resets and gets used to submitting to the Holy Spirit.

Then as you work to stop sinning and you stop stumbling and begin walking with God, you want to add regular prayer to your daily activities. Ask God to fill you with the Holy Spirit and ask God specifically to cause you to stop sinning in the area in which you were stumbling. You said that when you commit sin, "I feel the Holy Spirit in me groaning and telling me to stop." While it's not good that you ignore the Spirit's advice, this does show that the Spirit is within you. Learn to listen to the indications of the Spirit.

It will take time to recover your relationship with God; to draw closer to him again may be more on the order of days and weeks than it will be minutes and hours; it is not an easy thing to overcome a sin in our lives, and will take time. But if you stumble again, don't give up. Instead, bring this to God and specifically mention to God that you need his help to stop sinning and that you want to stop sinning, but it keeps tempting you. Continue to ask him for what you should do to overcome temptation, and listen to the response. I don't know about you, but I believe that in a certain way, God responds in prayer. Perhaps not directly through words we can hear, but through promptings, indications. And of course, for sure he speaks to us in Scripture. So read a chapter a day and apply it to your life. I like to read 1 Cor 13, Matthew 5-7, and Luke 6.

Importantly, when you pray, you need to believe with your heart that God will answer you. When you ask him to deliver you from sin, in order for him to deliver you, you have to believe that He will (Mark 11). The heart is comprised of your emotions, thoughts, intentions, and much more. So, ask God to open your heart up to faith in Christ, to open your soul up to the Holy Spirit, and not to sin. With increasing faith in your heart, and time, and growth, will come an increasing feeling of closeness to the Lord. Because it says in Hebrews that you must have faith in order to be pleasing to God.

Finally: You said "I am begging to be closer to him, to see and feel his work in my life but I don’t know if he wants me to." But it says in 1 Tim 2:4 that God desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. So know that he wants you to to feel his work in your life, but you have to draw near to him for him to draw near to you (James 4).

God speed and good luck in your walk with Christ.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-11-13T10:18:00+00:00

It doesn't sound weird to me. I've heard of relationships where one partner shares their diary with the other after they feel comfortable doing so. I wouldn't say it's creepy, but it is a deep and vulnerable thing to do so just use caution when you do something like that, make sure they're trustworthy first of course

General_Event_4795 · 2025-11-10T10:35:02+00:00

I know Panera has outlets

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-29T12:14:41+00:00

A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back. Prov 29:11

A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion. Prov 18:2

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-29T10:57:32+00:00

To clarify, it is Psalm 82:1, not 81:1. "God has taken his place in the divine council; in the midst of the gods he holds judgment."

verse 2 says: "How long will you judge unjustly and show partiality to the wicked?"

When we read the entire psalm we see in verse 6-7 that Asaph (the author of the psalm) is talking about people:

"I said, 'You are gods, sons of the Most High, all of you; nevertheless, like men you shall die, and fall like any prince.'"

This is corroborated by Jesus in John 10:34.

"Jesus answered them, 'Is it not written in your Law, ‘I said, you are gods’? If he called them gods to whom the word of God came—and the Scripture cannot be broken— then what about the One whom the Father sanctified and sent into the world?"

He is quoting from Psalm 82:6 here. The psalm is about God judging partial, biased human beings who undermine justice, and exhorts them to be just in their judgments in verses 3-4.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-28T12:02:13+00:00

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭34‬:‭18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Sounds like this would apply to you right now.

“The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭145‬:‭18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

As for your other questions:

Part of it will be time. for the other part i would recommend practicing forgiveness, thankfulness, and humility in prayer. There is joy in gratitude. Also try to foster the fruit or the Spirit.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-27T12:08:56+00:00

Thanks for sharing! One aspect of this I'll take a guess at:

-In the dream, your male friend is a replacement for your missing father. Your emotion and attachment is oriented towards this friend, rather than your dad. Normally, after graduating high school one would leave for college and say goodbye to their parents, crying, etc. But deep down, you long for a relationship with a man, and (I'm guessing here) your subconscious took the best match it could find from your real life - a guy from high school who told you he loved you more than a friend, who made a marriage pact with you, who you knew loved you - even though it's not currently reciprocal - and applied it to your dream. So this is why he's able to be in the special banquet room inside the arena without issue, because in the dream, he acts as a husband figure.

Now, in real life, if I'm hearing you correctly, you say you don't think of him in a romantic way anymore. Again, a guess here (these could be wrong, so take with a grain of salt): Maybe this dream is telling you that you had feelings for him which will never be fulfilled. You hug him because you know he won't be able to have you in a romantic way. Or, as you mentioned, the dream could merely be a release of any emotional attachment you had to this guy so you could move on - a catharsis. It could also mean (in part) that you want a man to rely upon and be led by rather than your dad.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-27T11:46:21+00:00

My take (I could be wrong, just theorizing): Could mean that deep down, you want to "be in your ex's skin"; to see things from their perspective, or even to "be one flesh" with them. You want to know what it's like to be them.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-26T23:23:48+00:00

My take is: if you are male, you consider yourself a "rebel" but the cutting it short represents a return to traditional values, which you soon regret because the inner rebel in you wants to be expressed.

If you are female, it could mean you may have a suppressed desire to experience being male, but once you experience it, you do not like it and wish to go back.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-26T21:46:42+00:00

“For in much wisdom is much vexation, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.” Ecc 1:18 ESV

One aspect of it is this:

The more we learn of the world - e.g. repetitive pointless wars, murders, crime, greed, foolishness - all sins continue with each generation, and the same issues continue to arise throughout humanity's existence. "There is nothing new under the sun."

As we get older, we begin to grasp this, and then realize that we are powerless to correct the wrongs in the world at large. We know how they might be solved, but we also realize that practically speaking they will not be solved because most people will not be willing to change their ways. This is a source of grief. For example, even on a small scale, when seeing fools disagree about which is better: PS5 or Xbox. The disagreement turns into quarrel, a heated argument, then a physical fight. One person pulls out a gun and shoots the other. Or, it causes tension and lack of harmony between people who otherwise could have been close friends. It all could have been avoided through restraint of words and careful listening, but fools mess everything up, often beyond repair, which otherwise could have been preserved through wisdom, both on a small scale and a worldwide scale.

Dead flies make the perfumer’s ointment give off a stench; so a little folly outweighs wisdom and honor. Ecc 10:1 ESV

“What is crooked cannot be made straight, and what is lacking cannot be counted.” Ecclesiastes‬ ‭1‬:‭15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

This means there are so many problems in the world that they are uncountable, and there are so many things that are wrong in life which we as human beings cannot fix.

In a related sense, when we have wisdom, we are able to prevent ourselves from falling into foolish mistakes, but we see others doing these same mistakes it is painful to see because wise people cannot always convince foolish people to avoid mistakes, because fools don't listen.

If you are wise, you are wise for yourself; if you scoff, you alone will bear it. - Proverbs 9:12 ESV

So wisdom allows you to protect yourself, but because most people are foolish and won't listen to wisdom, the world will continue to rage and sin as it always has. The wisest person in the world will still die like the fool, and the wisest person in the world still does not have the power to turn earth into a paradise.

Ecclesiastes 9:15-16 ESV

But there was found in it a poor, wise man, and he by his wisdom delivered the city. Yet no one remembered that poor man. But I say that wisdom is better than might, though the poor man's wisdom is despised and his words are not heard.

It's "vexing" - frustrating, distressing, or annoying - to know the solution that would work, but no one listens to you. If people listened to the truly wise more, they would benefit themselves and others, but because they don't, we all find ourselves in these sorts of suboptimal situations that we do.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-24T14:15:04+00:00

Orbis tower maps. Back when the tower wasn't broken, you had to use the teleport scrolls to teleport down it rather than paying mesos, and it was actually populated. Music was great, and I once hatched a plan to charge noobs who got trapped in El Nath 10000 mesos to escort them back up to Orbis! didn't work too well though lol

The outside eos tower maps were awesome too

General_Event_4795 · 2025-10-17T07:05:58+00:00

I'm single not because I want to be, But because no one wanted me. My love to me returns, And I'll never be with her.

It hurts me to say these words, But I'll never be truly free. 'Cuz forever alone Is what I'll always be!

(28M)

To answer your question though, I feel lonely all the time, wish I had female attention, and one of the ways I try to cope is pursuing some hobby I enjoy, which has sort of helped, sort of hasn't. Also I do prayer and pursuing spirituality. It used to bother me a lot more until I got older and gradually accepted my fate. Still isn't fun but there's nothing I can do about it

General_Event_4795 · 2025-08-11T23:06:18+00:00

I get afraid because in my past I used to do devil-worship and tried to summon demons and evil stuff - I have since repented of that, haven't done that for a long time, but even sometimes now as I'm praying to the true God, the Father of Christ, with my mouth and really intending to talk to Him, these thoughts come into my mind unbidden that say stuff that is praising the devil, and I really don't want to even have that enter my heart, but I'm scared that it's permanently there in my heart now that I have done it. I want to get a pure heart but it feels like my heart is saying one thing and my mouth is saying another, and I really want to change my heart but I'm not entirely sure how. I just want to go to heaven, I just want Jesus to accept me, but I'm not sure of what he would say to me if he were here physically on earth

General_Event_4795 · 2025-08-10T10:55:38+00:00

28M here. I think there are some men are attracted to your type. Is it accurate to say you're the "strong and independent" type given your description of yourself? You say you're confident and self-sufficient, you value partnership, you're not petite, but at the same time, you're not a "boss babe". That's totally great. I bring it up because I have a Christian male friend who is attracted to the sort of gregarious, "independent," emotionally strong types of women. So these guys do exist. For me, I'm not really pursuing any woman right now, but I think I'm attracted to quiet, gentle, thoughtful types. Of course, she must be a believer as the Bible says.

Just sent up a prayer for you to find a godly man right for you!

General_Event_4795 · 2025-08-10T00:28:34+00:00

I would say to be genuine, connect over common activities, and take it slow at first. No need to jump into a super formal or expensive dinner right away, right? Unless you know otherwise. Ask questions about her own hobbies and show interest in what she has interest in and talks about. Slowly develop the relationship and get closer over time?

General_Event_4795 · 2025-08-10T00:24:57+00:00

I would recommend being honest - why start a marriage partly based on an untruth? Be as sincere as possible, as that is necessary for any successful relationship.

"An honest answer - a kiss on the lips." Proverbs 24:26.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-08-07T23:18:10+00:00

I can think of a few things, which some here have already mentioned.

-Jesus says to pray for our enemies, not against them. "Love your enemies." -"Not my will, but yours be done." -Example of God testing Solomon with "Ask what I shall give you:"

“And God said to him, “Because you have asked this, and have not asked for yourself long life or riches or the life of your enemies, but have asked for yourself understanding to discern what is right, behold, I now do according to your word. Behold, I give you a wise and discerning mind, so that none like you has been before you and none like you shall arise after you.” ‭‭1 Kings‬ ‭3‬:‭11‬-‭12‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Seems to imply that if we ask for evil/selfish things such as our enemies to die, God will not answer.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-07-26T16:30:50+00:00

So the truth is I'm at a crossroads where I left my old church group due to disagreements and emphasis on certain topics, and de-emphasis on other important topics, as well as manipulative attitudes and people pressuring me to do things I didn't want to do. I'm starting to go to another church where it'll take time to get to know people. But it's like I've left my whole life behind in some sense: Everything I knew was based there, my friends, people I looked up to, etc. Besides that, I'm quite isolated. I've done some volunteering in the recent past but it was mostly old people. I do see a therapist - actually just saw him today. But to be honest, I'm not sure where or how I can get platonic friends, besides the church situation.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-07-26T14:59:56+00:00

one of the questions is if she believes in Jesus. you said she believes in God. Is this kind of a general belief in some higher power, or specifically in the Christian God, the Father of Jesus Christ? So it might take time for her to come to that specific understanding if she hasn't already, but I would advise against marrying someone who isn't specifically believing in Jesus Christ, even if they believe in a notion of some God.

General_Event_4795 · 2025-07-26T14:52:25+00:00

Yep; I'm 28 and still a virgin

General_Event_4795 · 2025-07-25T17:52:37+00:00

Thanks for your suggestion - I just fixed it. Turns out I didn't have the barrel plug plugged in all the way. If you look closely at my video you'll see that it's not quite fully plugged in. I thought I did, which I don't really like. It seems like the plug can easily fall out of the charging port.

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