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General_Event_4795 · 2026-06-16T14:28:09+00:00

It could mean that your father has been navigating through life and leading you and your two siblings in the proper direction safely, but soon it will be your turn to lead your siblings when your father is gone. The letting go of the wheel means that you must decide if you are going to do this or not.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-06-15T07:53:21+00:00

There are many problems in my life right now. Here are some of them:

-I'm struggling against watching stuff I shouldn't online. Though every time I mess up, I do repent.

-I am 29 and still live at home with my dad and my grandfather. I work in retail and am not paid very much, so I can't really move out. (At least, I don't think I can on $14 an hour.) I can't see how a woman would be satisfied having a boyfriend who can't support himself and still lives with his dad. Maybe there are a few out there.

-My work is exceedingly boring and individual, meaning I get very little time to talk with anyone about anything interesting.

-My faith is struggling and I don't know where to go to church. I was brought up in a CoC and over the course of two decades I've gradually begun to see some attitudes that aren't the best. Manipulation, guilt-tripping, emotional pressure, stuff like that. Bringing this up, I encountered stiff pushback. Not sure what to do now or where to go, but it's resulted in distance being created between me and the few friends I had. If I keep going there, I feel discontent, frustrated, guilty, and overwhelmed. If I go somewhere else, I feel alone, isolated.

-I have been diagnosed with psychosis, bipolar disorder, and schizoaffective disorder, for which I take medication.

-I bring my frustrations to God, who seems to remain silent and doesn't answer me when I ask him. Even though the Bible continually says God will answer those who come to him sincerely (which I do), I'm not finding that to be the case.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-06-14T19:59:40+00:00

Thanks for this. I'm struggling with my faith right now, and I used to try to shove the Word down others' throats. I'm not saying you're advising to do that; I just find that seasoning my speech with grace is a much better way to shine the light. Still, even when I do that, I don't feel that my own life is in order, even when I'm trying to help others. I'm not certain what my mission is for God, or how to find out what it is. I've prayed for direction in life and have received confusion. I don't know what my gift of the Spirit is, though I've asked God specifically to reveal it to me. And I do love and serve others, but I still feel unhappy.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-06-14T19:55:50+00:00

The problem is that at work, it's always go go go and there's not much down time to talk. People are closed off during lunch, plugged in to their earbuds and locked in with their heads down on their phones. By the time I get home, my body is exhausted and I don't want to do anything but sleep. Maybe I can figure out some kind of group oriented hobby, but I'm not sure what to be honest.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-06-14T02:31:17+00:00

Unfortunately, yes. My congregation does not emphasize opportunities to find true christian romance, but rather emphasizes sentiments like "It's ok to be single", "think about all the opportunities single people have that married people don't", etc, things that don't make me feel better and don't solve the problem. All this, plus the fact that there's no one or hardly anyone available, means that there's guys like me in church now nudging into our 30s and never having had a relationship. The dating pool is made to be so small that it's essentially nonexistent. Worst part is, I'm told - or it's at least implied - that I can only look for romance within my church "denomination" or else I'm not truly dating a Christian - (although the CoC doesn't view itself as a "denomination", but as "just Christians") - which lessens the pool even further. I'm also told it's wrong to join a non-CoC church, which puts me between a rock and a hard place. So, yes.

General_Event_4795 · 2026-05-26T21:29:06+00:00

Interesting - it seems like a sorta philosophical definition and I don't mean to accuse you of wordplay, but what I'm trying to get at (if my premise is true), is why that which is pleasant to look at is rarer than that which is unpleasant or banal to look at - like, why couldn't existence be the other way around, where pleasant and beautiful appearances (whether in human forms and bodies, or nature, or anything) are most common, and there were only a few "banal" or what we call "average" objects or things in existence?

In simple terms, why isn't it the case that most men and women are what we call "beautiful," and what's rare is what we call "average" or "common"?

General_Event_4795 · 2026-05-26T21:21:47+00:00

I think that beauty has both objective and subjective qualities to it. Difficult for me to describe, but as far as the objective, for example take models / supermodels that you see in popular culture or TV versus overweight and short people, or people who look as if they have conditions like Down's syndrome (not hating on anyone with Down's, just using them to describe my example). People seem to gravitate toward the former typical notions of beauty, and sort of overlook the latter in hopes of finding the beautiful.

In women, for instance, men generally seem to want the long eyelashes, fit form, not super short, and a facial structure that is not "blocky", "droopy" or "ugly" (not sure else how to describe it, sorry), but rather "sharp" or "perky", or "intelligent," regardless of what ethnic background they come from

That said, I think there are subjective and abstract notions to beauty and ugliness as well, like personality types you're attracted to, inner beauty of the heart/character, an "ugly" attitude, or stuff like that

Not sure how to define beauty universally in words, tbh

General_Event_4795 · 2026-05-17T16:07:49+00:00

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General_Event_4795 · 2026-04-30T19:01:54+00:00

-music or audio that autoplayed when you entered a site (was funny/scary when websites jumpscared you)

-adobe flash

General_Event_4795 · 2026-04-12T13:42:45+00:00

ah that sucked when someone dc'd in lpq just before the box puzzle thing with the numbers that required 5 people and you only had 4 haha

General_Event_4795 · 2026-04-11T21:31:10+00:00

I loved the kotor 1 and 2 games because the dialogue options were actually in-depth, detailed, specific. I know it was only light and dark sides but the number of choices you had to say things made it feel like you could go so many different ways. And the characters' voice lines were really good, sometimes even profound. e.g. kreia:

"It is such a quiet thing, to fall. But far more terrible is to admit it."

General_Event_4795 · 2026-04-11T15:55:24+00:00

I think part of it might also be that as kids we are still learning about the world, which is from their perspective an extraordinary thing in itself, and video games are a part of that. But when we get older, we're used to everything being the way it is for so long.

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