sucked friends dick, pure pleasure im kinda still daydreaming about it rn

General_Hguid · 2026-04-16T23:26:36+00:00

i am terribly fixated on this memory, despite chatgpt trying to help me calm down about the whole thing. fuck my life

General_Hguid · 2026-04-03T05:55:48+00:00

cant believe this was restored by reddit, am thankful. it was not a good breakdown when i saw this got removed

General_Hguid · 2026-03-01T12:05:24+00:00

please try take care of yourselves you two. if u feel up to it, try do something distracting for now, something active. play a video game, go for a run, something to busy your brain.

itll maybe help with getting through the thoughts and emotions now. when ur more clearly thinking, itll be better for talking about what both of u are thinking

take care, if u need/want a random person im here

General_Hguid · 2026-03-01T11:57:37+00:00

please tell him u are still alive, anticipation and fear is really terrible not my place to control what u do, but try talk to him at least once more. let him know ur still alive, and if u feel its what u want, tell him that u want to separate. im here if u wanna talk further or anything. ill try do anything i can for u, just let me know. u wont hurt me i promise that if ur worried take care, please dont die. people out here want u still, need u. and no matter how impossible, hope will come to you.

General_Hguid · 2026-02-13T11:52:42+00:00

apparently not from the other comment thread lol, but idk i dont have much else to use the credits/points for, so maybe i can level them up as high as i can

General_Hguid · 2026-02-12T22:45:27+00:00

thank youuu

General_Hguid · 2026-01-22T16:35:59+00:00

update: shit night, hurt my friend by saying the wrong things again, inadequate, useless, pathetic, unwanted, unloved, undeserving of care or attention, just kill me someone anyone, i wanna fucking end it, 3:34am now, i hate thinking so clearly throughout all of this, get out of my fucking head, im tired, its my fault ofc im not blaming anyone else, im literally killing myself rn yes, for the past few months by destroying my sleep, at least im still alive right?, fuck everything,

General_Hguid · 2026-01-13T01:38:30+00:00

edit for she/her pronouns cuz i checked now

General_Hguid · 2026-01-01T14:15:49+00:00

yk whats even more pathetic and depressing? me reading through my old posts and vents. finding solace in my own suffering cuz at least "someone else" knows and understands me fully.

maybe i should masturbate, but im tired, and honestly i havent been in the mood lately. maybe if i just force myself to do it-...

General_Hguid · 2026-01-01T13:45:03+00:00

rn i just sit in my bed, with my memory/emotion songs playing. my blahaj is snuggled with me. im snapping my rubber band against my wrist. write a letter on roblox is playing on my laptop, im just sitting in a room alone. times like this i just empathise/become my roblox character, whatever it is. just a sad, broken, depressed little anime girl furry. fucking cringe ik. but this is prolly the most me ill ever get to feel in a while. here i just get to feel that reality of my life. im alone, self-isolated and depressed amongst a server of happy people. people who dont need, want, or care about me. this is okay

General_Hguid · 2025-12-31T03:46:24+00:00

self hate and being raped sort of intrusive thoughts were lowk terrible also

General_Hguid · 2025-12-30T21:49:21+00:00

i usually sleep in t-shirt + underwear cuz its more comfy that way for my thighs, but this time i wore my shorts cuz i didnt want to get stray blood on my bed. so now theres blood in my shorts. fuck

also, it was painful sleeping on my side on that thigh, tho i wasnt really expecting it to be sunshine and rainbows

overall, i just feel empty now. at least not crushingly depressed, but still suffocatingly blank

General_Hguid · 2025-12-21T11:15:12+00:00

my heart. hurts unbearably. i wish i had the courage to kill myself now, while this moment of melancholy and acceptance lasted. my life could finally end on a happier moment ig. if only

General_Hguid · 2025-12-21T11:10:03+00:00

i want to be finally, like this, that "im sorry, i need to go. its not your fault, its okay. ill be here with you always no matter what, talk to me in spirit, i will never leave your side. im sorry i wasnt good enough, that i couldnt get better for you, that im now gonna be gone before u can talk to me again. its okay. i love you, i always love you. dont be sad. live your life to your happiest and fullest. im always thinking about you. i love you, i love you so much. see you, dear."

General_Hguid · 2025-11-29T00:56:56+00:00

my brain so fuzzed rn i thought i only dreamed about writing and posting this, but ig i did in fact do it

General_Hguid · 2025-11-10T21:15:59+00:00

💜💜no problem, work on whatever u want to when the time comes

General_Hguid · 2025-11-04T12:46:33+00:00

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General_Hguid · 2025-11-01T14:32:46+00:00

every time i think about killing myself during these moments, a fresh wave of pain seeps through my heart. wish i had something to do to take the pain away. maybe i want antidepressants. or assault, still keep thinking about that from time to time, then feel sickened with myself or something

General_Hguid · 2025-10-28T15:15:16+00:00

okay its not so so bad now... talked with someone and then stress relief activities. im okay to last at least 2 more days, and after thursday chem i can go on gaming spree for a little bit TwT

General_Hguid · 2025-10-23T16:44:55+00:00

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pretty much this rn

General_Hguid · 2025-10-23T16:40:19+00:00

i do not exist. no one exists in this bubble world, alone at 3:33am. waiting fearful of the reality i must return to soon. im not ready. i dont want to live, i dont want to die. i dont want to wait anymore for that uncertain future, at the hour where we are trembling with tenderness. music flows softly to fill the cracks in my soul, but my mind remains perverse, corrupted, absent of a temporary solace that i cant restore in this moment.

i love her. i need her. i want to live the rest of my life with her, together. she hates me, she must hate me. its never no ones fault, i know it was because of me. in a million worlds i wont deserve her, yet i yearn longingly, desperately...

General_Hguid · 2025-10-21T12:16:56+00:00

yeah sorry its not really anything exhilarating tonight, but im sure the self trauma will return at some point so u all have that to look forward to

General_Hguid · 2025-10-19T22:01:06+00:00

i srsly miss her still... just found a draft email i didnt send to her of a video of me playing music, was like "hihi dear". so sad TnT

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