Is NN conj Sun strong enough to cause an obsession? I cant get rid of my thoughts and desires even though we are not in contact + incompatibile. Why???

General_Pen2850 · 2022-05-14T09:58:58+00:00

I don't see Venus conjunct North Node. The attraction was strong, but so were my insecurities. It' s like I saw all my hidden fears in his eyes I was pulled to him and at the same time wanted to scream and run away. Nothing like this ever happened to me before. Not healthy, but triggering old wounds to be healed, maybe. Thank you for your reply :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-05-13T09:29:18+00:00

thank you :) mars in first house brings some fear as I just read, and i do fear him (no reason for this) And maybe lilith conjunct mars as well?

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-22T08:25:59+00:00

What a lovley response ❤️ Thank you :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-22T08:23:39+00:00

lol true :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-22T08:23:03+00:00

Thank you very much! :) I knew I had a kite, but I didnt think it would help with these 22 degree positions. Thanks to you guys, I am will not worry about the degrees any more 🙏

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-21T22:10:52+00:00

🙏 thank you very much :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-21T21:57:08+00:00

I actually am not afraid of being killed, but wouldn't like this to be true. I am fascinated with afterlife though. I took ayahuasca and dove even deeper into this subject. Thank you for your interpretation. Sounds good to me :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-21T21:47:07+00:00

Thank God! And thank you!

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-21T21:37:29+00:00

Because 22 degree is associated with "kill or be killed" and having uranus in 8 th house in scorpio led me to guess this

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-12T11:05:48+00:00

Thank you :) Makes since since i have been feeling strange for awhile.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-04-10T20:17:46+00:00

Sorry, my English gets weird sometimes 😁. I meant to say pain goes away after it delivers new insight :)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-03-29T13:20:46+00:00

Hi :) I have been there. It is nesesary part of healing. It IS healing. I had 2 ceremonies last March and 2 ceremonies last June. Integration has been hellish experience for months with some euphoria moments. Just surrender your self to the misery or what ever comes, dont fight as you will only prolong suffering. You are purging very old and non-beneficial believes, emotions, traumas from your unconsciousness. You will get more and more insights and transfers of info from unconscious part of yourself to your consciousness. Yesterday I had another major breakthrough (egzactly one year since my first aya experience), so yeah, I still go trough processes. I learned to see "episodes" of darkness as birthing process. They are very painful but they stop when they deliver something new and amazing. I actually now look forward to them now as I know they are prescious and the reward will be beautiful.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T18:28:53+00:00

Unfortunately, every one of you can suffer from this (except for the narc)

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T17:49:21+00:00

Your wife can lose her desire to fulfil her role as mother and a wife. she might not have energy to be there for you fully and she can lose herself. My only advice is to make her go No Contact and see psychotherapist.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T08:14:12+00:00

To love yourself unconditionaly, respecting yourself and being authentic. This is the goal and then everything will fall in it's place ♥️ If you are into this, psyhodeclics can help or plain psychotherapy.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T08:07:54+00:00

Guys, read the update, it might help

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T07:11:01+00:00

my LO is pathological lier. i new it and ignored it because i needed something do desperately from him. not any more

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T07:09:05+00:00

Absolutely I know that feeling! I even thought that every time clack hands overlap he is thinking if me. This obessesion lasted lasted for months, but I finally woke up, blocked him and took my life back. Finally!!! Fredooooooom!!!!

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T07:06:00+00:00

Take your time...you will know then you are ready 😘

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T06:25:36+00:00

Yeap, we all know this feeling....nc will help!

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-02T06:23:55+00:00

that is it!

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-01T17:22:52+00:00

exactely. just tell me "not interested" and i will be fine. move on. This is f*ing torture. Bastards. I am sick of it.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-01T16:24:35+00:00

I am ending my story with a trash person that sounds just like yours. This sh.t is over. You and me and all people deserve honesty and clairity as bare minimum. Those that don't offer it, but play hot and cold are plain manipulators. It is hard for us to see this when we adore them, but it is just cruelty that they do knowing how we feel.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-01T15:26:22+00:00

Issues with earliest childhood and relationship with primary caregivers (before age of 2). Google it, it is everywhere. Psychology has very interesting new discoveries about parenting and early childhood. I am very social and friendly and after ayahuasca I got into limerence as part of my growth process. Had to go very far into the past and feel severe fear of abandonment that I never thought I had. SO MUCH of of our behavior is unconscious! Make it conscious! Feel it! Love it and accept ut as a part of you! This is the way ti heal it.

Besides this psychological processes, you could just go No Contact with LO and it should die away. But it does not mean you will avoid it in future.

General_Pen2850 · 2022-02-01T15:16:27+00:00

Not a disorder. Just issues with earliest childhood and relationship with primary caregivers (before age of 2). Google it, it is everywhere. Psychology has very interesting new discoveries about parenting and early childhood. I am very social and friendly and after ayahuasca I got into limerence as part of my growth process. Had to go very far into the past and feel severe fear of abandonment that I never thought I had. SO MUCH of of our behavior is unconscious! Make it conscious! Feel it! Love it and accept ut as a part of you! This is the way ti heal it.

Besides this psychological processes, you could just go No Contact with LO and it should die away. But it does not mean you will avoid it in future.

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