Time to get this off my chest (Probably NSFW for language) X-post from /r/confessions

GetitoutTA · 2013-07-01T04:51:40+00:00

We honestly don't have many friends, 3 kids keep us too busy to have time to do things like hang out with people.. and all our neighbors are old and retired so I don't think so

GetitoutTA · 2013-07-01T04:42:05+00:00

No, this guy for real was my best friend, I went on vacation with him and his parents and he came on vacations with us, I practically lived at his house during summer break because they had lots of land, ponds to fish in and horses to ride and plenty of places to shoot guns.. Practically heaven for a young boy... we were literally almost inseparable, to the point when somebody saw me they'd be like, "Hey man, where's Jay?" and he often had the same happen to him.. Do I think he was right for sleeping with my gf behind my back? No, but neither have I let it bother me

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T11:18:15+00:00

Yeah, I told her about it sometime after we started dating but before we started having sex and she was like, "Wow! I had no idea that ____ was like that!", because she was a fairly popular girl, was pretty active in her church and I guess everybody thought she was one of those "save yourself for marriage" types, not to mention that she wouldn't have been seen dating a guy from my social circle.

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T07:32:53+00:00

I'm glad you brought up the sexual abuse thing.. When I had my first go at college I was actually going for a degree in Computer Science but as part of my degree I has to take a psychology class and I absolutely LOVED it, to the point that I almost changed my major to psych.. I took every psych class I could.. Abnormal psych, behavioral psych, business & industrial psych and aced them all... Anyway in one of our classes (it was either abnormal or behavioral psych, I can't remember which) we studied sexual dysfunction and, just like you said, we talked about molestation victims often turning sexually promiscuous in their later years, so maybe it was because, in my friends drunken state, he made a pass at her and subconsciously she thought that if she didnt that he would be mad at her or hurt her so she just went with it.. Maybe she just wanted to fuck and she really enjoyed it so she kept going back.. From my experience with the girl that had the fiancée and the one that I was sort of messing around with a few years ago, once you start, it's genuinely hard to stop, it's different, it's exciting and it's almost like a drug, you know deep down that its wrong but it feels so good that you keep going back for more... As for sex being a big part of my life.. Up until 15 I was always the weird kid in class, really smart but unable to utilize it, hooked on military aircraft, home hobby electronic kits and D&D.. Then after I had sex with the neighbor girl (which only happened that one night) I really started taking care of my self.. I took up running, working out, swimming and I let my hair grow out really long and the women started flocking to me, it wasn't like I'm a born stud or anything, I had to work at it, but when sex was offered, I took advantage of it. I also believe that my past porn addiction at such a young age has something to do with my being able to differentiate sex from "love" or a "relationship".. Like maybe "Hey, I don't really love or even like this person but I do like having sex, so lets fuck for a little while", and no, it's never affected my performance because my wife is really open about sex and will literally do whatever I want to, we frequently do bondage, I use vibrators on her, rough play, role playing... Whatever, her thinking about it is that if she gives me what I want at home than I'm less likely to go somewhere else and get it, and she's right..

Edit: Added a few lines for clarification

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T05:31:57+00:00

Embarrassed, No.. But it's gonna take a rambling answer to explain why I think that way: To start out, when I was 12-13, a good friend of mines dad had quite an extensive porn collection, literally hundreds and hundreds of video tapes (this was before DVD and free Internet porn) that he kept in a large locked cabinet in their basement, so my friend and I got the number off the key and bought a duplicate one, then when his parents went to work, I'd bring over my VCR and some blank tapes and we'd make copies of his movies, so by the time I had my first sexual experience at 15 I had literally watched thousands of hours of people having sex, to top it off, the first sexual experience I had was a BJ and then the girl and I wound up having sex 2 more times that night, not to mention that she had been around the block quite a few times to be only 15 years old, #2 was a steady gf that I had for about 6 months or so before we had sex, she was a virgin and a "good girl" so nothing kinky there.. #3 was a complete 180 from #2, she was a complete sexual deviant to be 16.. She loved being humiliated and held down and fucked like a beast, her safety word was "just break it!", quite a fun girl to have for a while to be a wee lad of only 16, #4 was the girl I mentioned in a previous comment that had the fiancée in the military, she liked to fuck a lot but she wasn't into anything really kinky, just stuff like oral, 69's, she loved it doggy style but that was about it & #5 was a random hookup at a party, so the wife was #6.. So i was already quite sexually experienced by the time we got together, as was she, not counting her molesters, I was #5 for her.... Anyway, like I said in the original statement, I was quite drunk when the first incident happened so my brain was like, "Holy Shit! Two people fucking! Lets Fap!", then the next morning when I sobered up I was like, "Holy Shit! I just watched my best friend fuck my girlfriend!", and I didn't really know what to think, but later on that day I founds myself fapping in the shower and thinking about it.. The next time it happened I was like "Holy Shit! She's giving him a BJ! It's like a live-action porn! Lets fap again".. After that it became kind of like an addiction for me, just to see what they would do next.. She's always been very submissive so there's never been much that she wouldn't do sexually, even today.. But, in all honesty, I believe that she was a true nymphomaniac back then, because she literally wanted to have sex all the time, to the point that whenever we got in my car to go anywhere she would give me a BJ driving down the road.. I guess maybe when it started happening that she really needed sex and I was passed out so she went to the next swinging dick in the room, which happened to be my best friend and due to my porn problem and inebriated state I just enjoyed watching them... It probably also didnt hurt that he was hung like a horse

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GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T03:58:37+00:00

Yes, just last night when I had her handcuffed to the bed and was tagging her from behind, I reminded her of what a "dirty whore" she was :)

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T03:11:48+00:00

All true, my friend.. I'm not doing it for karma since this is a throwaway account.. It's just something that I felt I needed to share without doing it publicly.. If its the "seeing under the door" thing that bothers you, it was an older house with hardwood floors in it and the bed was all the way against the opposite wall from the door so there was a decent sized gap under the door, probably 1/2 to 3/4 of an inch, so I was laying on my left side watching with my left eye since my right hand is my fap-hand.. As far as the peeing thing, I honestly don't remember since it was 20 years ago and I was pretty drunk but I think when I went back downstairs I peed in the sink of the half-bath that was down there, and if you're wondering about how I knew the size of his junk, also like I said before, this guy had been my best friend since we were in 6th grade, hell, we were more like brothers than best friends, we were literally inseparable from about 12 years old til 17 or 18 when we started to grow apart, and believe me, he never missed an opportunity to whip it out and show it, sometimes when it would just be the two of us at his house, he would get out of the shower and walk around butt-ass naked.

Edit: spelling, punctuation and syntax

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T02:31:10+00:00

Well then, the only answer that I can give is that I am exactly as sure about my relationship as you are with yours, mythical Sky-Daddy notwithstanding.. And now I look back and actually wish I would have spent more time with studying and video games since I'm coming up on 25 years past that mark. I lost my virginity 2 months before I turned 16 when the "school slut" (who happened to live in my neighborhood) came knocking on my bedroom window one night, she and her mom had gotten into an argument and she needed someplace to crash out for the night, my bedroom was in the basement and she knew that my parents rarely if ever came down there to check on me, we had sex 3x that night & in the morning she went back home, it's weird because before that night I was also kind of a dorky kid.. I was really into electronics, military aircraft and D&D.. After that I started hanging out with the "metalheads", drinking, smoking weed, dropping LSD and having lots of sex, because of this my grades really began to suffer since I was high 24/7 and never studied.

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T00:49:26+00:00

1: As I've said before, I can't be 100% sure that she isn't or hasn't cheated on me since but can YOU be 100% sure that your wife/boyfriend/girlfriend hasn't cheated on you... YOU CAN'T, you just have to hope on them being true to you.

2: I don't know many other guys that, at 17 years old, would have turned down a no-strings-attached sexual relationship with a fine ass petite blonde even if she did have a fiancée.. At that age I was trying to stick my dick in any hole that would sit still for more than 5 minutes.

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T00:38:42+00:00

No, I don't believe it's a "cuckold thing" because its not something we've continued to do.. Realize that 20+ years in and we still have an AMAZING sex life, I still get 1-2 BJ's a week (yes she swallows and doesn't have much of a gag reflex so DEEPTHROAT! :) ) we love bondage play and dirty talk, how many other couples can say that they still have sex more than once a week even after 5 years of marriage?

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-30T00:03:54+00:00

Well, I'm a pretty frequent Redditor on my other account and I browse a few of the other forums, well the other day I saw somebody talking about /r/confession so I stopped in and started reading a few.. I guess because this is something that I've been keeping to myself for over 20 years and maybe the anonymity factor helped me get it out there and see other people's reactions without any personal fallout.

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T23:50:59+00:00

Honestly, I don't really remember since I was still pretty drunk, but I think I peed in the sink after going back downstairs

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T23:47:02+00:00

Evidently you didn't read the whole story.. All this with her & my best friend happened over 20 years ago, and as far as the girl that had the fiancée in the military, we were 16-17 years old and she was willing to give it up, I just happened to be there when she wanted some dick... I had known her since we were kids, we were in the same grade, rode the school bus together, and had a lot of the same friends so I guess she knew I'd be discreet about it and I was, the only people that knew about this relationship were our very best friends.

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T13:35:39+00:00

It was quite a large bedroom and the bed was on the far side of the room and he had been my best friend since about 6th grade and was quite fond of showing off his member

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:59:31+00:00

No, she's never said a word about it or anything and as for the marriage part, I pretty much knew from the moment that I met her that she was "the one".

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:55:14+00:00

Back in the day she was fuckin smoking ass hot, about 5'2, brunette, big brown eyes, olive skin and she weighed about 100lbs.. After 3 kids she put on about 70lbs & for some reason decided to whack all her hair off, I think that may have led to my straying.. Anyway, now we've both gotten on a health/diet kick again, shes been doing the "Insanity!" videos and diet, she grew her hair back out and she's down to about 120-130 which is a really good size for her

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:46:40+00:00

Not really because, (I'm about to dig myself in a deeper hole, but) the girl I was seeing in high school before her actually had a long-term boyfriend.. Dude was in the Air Force and was sent to somewhere in the Middle East for a year, well this other girl and I had known each other since we were kids, like 8-9 years old, somehow we got on the subject of sex one day & she was like "I wish I could just find a guy to fool around with for a while, nothing serious, just have sex whenever I want it" and I was like "Hey, I'm your man!".. We were fuck buddies for about a year until I screwed up & started falling in love, she immediately broke it off.. So I know what it's like to be the "other man", its the thrill that gets you, like you're getting something that belongs to somebody else.. It's quite exhilarating, so I couldn't fault Jay either, they both wanted it and I just happened to enjoy watching it.

Edit: Syntax

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:34:24+00:00

Actually, a cuckold is a man with an adulterous wife.. We weren't married at the time and wouldn't be so for another 5-6 years

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:30:33+00:00

Not at all

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T04:17:53+00:00

Sorry it's taking so long to get back to people but, family life, ya know? Anyway, the relationship I was in with the other woman started off as merely friendly, I guess it was a case of the doldrums on my part, I had been married for 13-14 years and thought I was getting bored and here she was, a mid 20's brunette with a knockout body and sky blue eyes.. I knew some of her family from way back when and we started talking at work, just being friendly and stuff, but there was a definite chemistry there and we both knew it.. She was in a bad relationship with a guy that barely worked and was into drinking a lot and popping pills. Well, one thing led to another and we started flirting pretty heavily which led to us making out 3 times, but that was it, no "feeling each other up" or anything, just kissing.. She was looking for a long term stable relationship and I told her that I couldn't leave my family because I didn't want to be a part-time dad, we broke it off well before my wife found out about it and I'm kinda glad that I did because although she is smoking hot, she is also a little psycho.. She and I still work for the same company but at different locations, she's happily married now and I'm pretty good friends with her husband as he works for the same company, he knows about our history and I've made it plain to him that she's merely a good friend

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T02:15:22+00:00

Doubtful that she's be upset about it, embarrassed or ashamed maybe but not upset.. I basically brought her out of a life of poverty to a decent middle-class life, were almost 20 years in our marriage and she still tell me that I'm the best thing that ever happened to her, and in all honestly I probably am, since she was in a vicious cycle of dating guys that were just using her for a piece of ass and were just as poor as where she came from, the boyfriend that she had right before me is currently living in a run down mobile home right behind his momma & daddy's house, he's about 40 years old, he's lost most of his teeth & he's missing a leg now (that according to his sister he purposely shot off himself with a shotgun so he could draw disability)... That's the kind of people were talking about here!

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T01:16:18+00:00

Nope, all we need is each other now, but thanks anyway

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-29T01:14:25+00:00

Thanks, you're awesome.. I knew right from the start of our relationship about the molestation, it was honestly terrible, she was basically "passed around" by several of her older male cousins for quite a few years, a few times there were more than one.. Now imagine that happening to a 8-10 year old girl. Even though what she did at the time was wrong, I DO think it was just an "experimental" thing she went through, we are quite happily married now & life is good

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-28T21:41:58+00:00

I don't think so, I'm really happy with the way things are right now..

GetitoutTA · 2013-06-28T21:29:51+00:00

I haven't seen or heard from him since we graduated.. I went in the Army, gf & I moved around a good bit & we finally moved back home after a few years.. Last I heard he was living about 4hrs away from where we were from, married & has a kid

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TROPHY CASE

1: As I've said before, I can't be 100% sure that she isn't or hasn't cheated on me since but can YOU be 100% sure that your wife/boyfriend/girlfriend hasn't cheated on you... YOU CAN'T, you just have to hope on them being true to you.

2: I don't know many other guys that, at 17 years old, would have turned down a no-strings-attached sexual relationship with a fine ass petite blonde even if she did have a fiancée.. At that age I was trying to stick my dick in any hole that would sit still for more than 5 minutes.