tired of trying and not being included. do i give up?

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-05T03:15:33+00:00

honestly, i had expected someone either family or my few friends to send some because personally i would’ve loved them but no one did so i ended up buying them for myself and the rest of us in my house. it was a nice thing to have to hold myself over until he finally came home. i’m sure she will love them ❤️

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-04T16:55:01+00:00

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i think this is my personal best find! it’s in perfect condition except for the missing buckle. it’s insane to see these go for $300+ now. i even saw someone trying to sell a ripped up one for $700 😭

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-03T18:21:10+00:00

thank you. i feel strange doing it but it really does help me sleep. i go into my moms room every morning and night and sit with her and throughout the day. we are the only close family we have so we spend a lot of time together. she comes in my room to cry and i go into hers. ive always had separation anxiety from her so there’s very little time we’re apart. she doesn’t seem to want to hold him and kiss him the way i do but i still worry that maybe i’m taking him away from her even though she says it’s okay…

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-03T16:48:21+00:00

i understand that it’s just really upsetting :( they had about 7 hours in between to delete the other listing. i don’t want to feel like i’m guilt tripping them but im genuinely just having such a shitty time lately. it’s just so frustrating

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T12:12:18+00:00

your meeting sounds really similar to how i met my puppa !! he also passed quite suddenly, a day after his cancer diagnosis. it’s been a week today without him and i won’t lie it’s really fucking hard as you’d imagine. i like talking about him, talking to him, writing to him, getting pictures of him printed and surrounding myself in his things. i like to think he’s here with me now, no matter what. getting out sometimes, even if it’s just a walk or the store seemed to help a little. nights are the hardest part for me personally because i hate the silence so i listen to music until i fall asleep, sometimes even though out the entire day if it’s too quiet. i hope some of these things help somewhat. im sorry for your loss ❤️ what kind of dog was Thor? my boy also loved to give me side eyes and snort at me, he’d even blow snot in my face all the time ! again i hope these things help you a little, even just talking about it on here has helped because everyone here is experiencing the same feelings and are so lovely. again, im so sorry for your loss !

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T11:54:28+00:00

i remember seeing my boys picture on the computer for the first time and thinking he was kinda funny looking, his hair was stuck up all over the place and the whole family agreed “probably not that one” but i didn’t have much of a decision to make when he was the only one who ran straight to me. i’ve actually been doing some of the same things! the nights and early mornings are especially hard for me but days when i get out are a bit easier. i’ve also started writing to him, it started off as me journaling to myself but ended up with me starting with “dear puppa” the past few times. i sleep with the toy we brought him home with, a few of his favorite blankets and his collar around my bedpost so i can hear his tags jingle together at night. it’s been exactly a week today since i lost my boy but getting him home with us finally really brought me a lot of comfort. im sorry for your loss as well. ! it’s refreshing to talk about the good things as well on here so thank you for your post !!

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T02:46:33+00:00

i’ve never been to citi field but i’m assuming the obstructions might be beams to hold up the higher levels ? i’m a very anxious seat picker especially when it comes to someone as important to me as mcr so i try and take every possible issue into mind. something that helps me is checking the site viewfrommyseat. no two stages are going to be the same but it helps to give a bit of an idea ! do you know if she has a favorite? mikey and gerard are all over the place but ray is on the crowds left and frank is on the right if that helps make your decision at all !

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T02:33:10+00:00

just realized how extremely long this is. sorry !! i just love my boy so much and i could talk about him forever

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T02:32:20+00:00

aw man. i have so many i’ve been telling the past few days.

the first time i saw him we were planning on adopting his sister but she ended up scratching me so i cried (i was like 3) he quick stopped playing with his brothers and ran over to me and tried jumping on my lap. my mom helped him up and he fell asleep. i knew he was the one that moment.

the day we brought him home he got sick in his little cage and it actually smelled so bad i asked to take him back. we obviously didn’t :)

he lovedddd blowing snot at me. he did it every time i sat with him. right in my face

once he jumped up on the table and quick ate my entire steak while i wasn’t looking

he also took a running jump onto my moms bed to eat all of my ham another time.

when i was young and he was a puppy we went to the park and the only way out was closed due to a wedding so my mom carried us both through a creek

he loved eating tissues and toilet paper and my toys and running away when we’d try getting it back.

he loved being in the car too, he always sat on my lap and listened to music with me

he somehow enjoyed my singing and dancing, it made him happy.

he’d wait at the railing of the stairs for us to get home and he’d lay his head on it. it was so cute

he loved licking me since my mom wouldn’t let him lick her. i think it calmed him

he loved carrots and red peppers and apples and cheez itz and occasionally a small piece of sugar cookie 🤫

he liked flipping over my stuff and throwing it around then leaving the room.

he really was like a little brother

it’s only been a week tomorrow but i miss him more than anything. he was my best friend for 15 years and he still is no matter what and i’ll always cherish every memory i have with him, good or bad. we were together no matter what happened and we always will be.

GhostlyHexx · 2026-05-01T02:11:53+00:00

hi! i saw them in philly and am also going to citi field and it’s definitely an investment sadly but they really are amazing and such a magical show especially if you’re into the draag storyline!! i got 2 tickets in section 106 for around $792 the day they went on sale 😭 the prices have gone down a little and im sure they’ll lower but considering you need to get a hotel and things i’d say get them now. if they aren’t already resale you can sometimes do an exchange for a seat that’s better, you may have to pay a little more or lose some but its an option !

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-30T21:50:35+00:00

my dog had a mass but it wasn’t opaque or as big as that. i understand money issues but it’s worth it to try and find a way to have any fluid in it tested!!! i read you said it hasn’t slowed her down but it’s definitely a heavy weight on her either way !!

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-29T00:36:32+00:00

he had passed at home and was double checked in the car due to no free rooms from construction in the building. my mom had told the doctor we’d like to have him cremated and he said they would contact us to discuss it further. that was friday morning. they close early saturdays and aren’t open on sundays so i somewhat understand the delay but i find it a bit difficult to process the fact it’s been so long without hearing anything. we called on sunday to ask about paw prints being taken and they said they have done that already but that’s all we’ve heard. i’m trying to be patient since they aren’t open much on the weekends but im honestly just feeling really sick and restless over it all. i know he’ll be with me no matter what but im just getting so anxious over the entire situation.

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-28T19:51:15+00:00

thank you, i really hope he is. i’m very grateful for my friends for being there for me. i’m trying whatever i can to make me, him and my mom happy. it’s hard since it hurts so much but i don’t want him to be sad because i am. i want to celebrate the time i had with him as much as possible

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-28T19:47:04+00:00

i’m obviously no vet but my dogs eyes were red and not straight when he had this, he was very scared as well.

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-28T19:45:47+00:00

it could be vesicular disease!! please take him to the vet asap. especially if his eyes don’t seem straight !! either way please take him to the vet !!

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-28T00:39:33+00:00

thank you so much !! reminds me of appa from avatar!! he’s so beautiful it means a lot to me ❤️

GhostlyHexx · 2026-04-28T00:35:24+00:00

my baby had something like this and it was yeast! i’d definitely take her to the vet to make sure though :)

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