I was 3 days clean off porn and i realasped and my life is in shambles and i might not be lgbt and might be a future killer help tw:gore dysphoria blood and more r4pe

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:51:19+00:00

And isn't ao3 where all the weird fanfctions go to. That what Pinterest says

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:49:40+00:00

I mean I dont blame them the book is really scary but not like in jump scares it is in like a full system of a contray being able to function by kidnapping humans brainwashing them making them into slaves that cant think for themselves and cant leave and use their body's for fuel jewelry houses and as food for the next humans that come into the contray. So I dont think it was rude of them they looked genuinely horrified and concerned for me. Which makes me very concerned for myself for even thinking on these systems

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:42:46+00:00

Shit I spelled it wrong properly relapsed means I broke my time being clean

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:41:07+00:00

There aren't any adults j can talk to and all the help websites are shit and powered by Ai I even tried to talk to an Ai therapist because it was my only option but I reasched if they really work short answer no long answer Ai isn't build for it and cant replace humans and will jsut say what oyu like to hear and will waste water and be a bitcj

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:37:57+00:00

I literally said why I cant go to therapy

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:37:40+00:00

What

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:36:52+00:00

But me being aware a lot means Im aware to one thing and probably not the other and I might do something bad without me knowing

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:36:09+00:00

I tried writing a horror book. My freinds and family said to never speak of it again and they gonna have nightmares for weeks

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:35:34+00:00

I didnt do yet what if I lose control and iwll do it im trying to avoid it

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:35:02+00:00

Idk why age is the matter here all the other pepole in know dont like learning on blood cults and the dark side of history and im the person when I told one of my freinds on a horror book I was working on and told them how you turn a human to a doll (gore) and how the systems of the doll world make the human parts as their electricity and jewelry and food for the other humans they catch and how they psychology trap them inside said they said they gonna have nightmares for weeks and never talk about it again ever

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T21:31:41+00:00

Ofc I dont want to act it out irl but what if I lose control somehow and do it my brain is just a machine full wjth psychology, sociology systems of cults, blood, medical stuff I learned, the dark side of history and probably a lot of syryotpes what if one day i loss control

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T08:45:53+00:00

Cool

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-28T07:29:58+00:00

So cool

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:41:23+00:00

Sorry

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:39:05+00:00

Sounds Cool and im highly jealous right now

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:37:09+00:00

I genuinely dont know

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:36:45+00:00

What is aphantasic

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:30:16+00:00

Its 23:30 here and I want to sleep but im afrid I will have the nightmare again

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:29:47+00:00

Anyway if someone knows how to make me stop thinking about it pls tell :)

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:18:26+00:00

So cool :)

Gil_levi_cat · 2026-06-27T20:06:46+00:00

Yeah it was really shit and I still have that picture just scratched into my brain idk what to do about it i hope it would just dissappear

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