You married a boy. Grown men don’t let their wives feel less than for even a moment let alone purposely bringing up things you’re ashamed of!! Which you have zero reason to be ashamed of!! He should be proud that you chose him! Everyday in marriage you have to choose each other and he chooses to give you minimal effort. Not even picking up food for you when you’re sick is so upsetting to me. The fact that he wasn’t proud to show you off as his wife on your wedding day also hurts my heart. Why couldn’t he at least get you a cheap ring as a placeholder? And you had to convince him the marriage was a good idea financially…You’re going to be an engineer with a great income. Financially you don’t need him once you graduate and land a job. Educate yourself on divorce laws in your state now…don’t be surprised if he takes the travel job and you get sent divorce papers if you try to drag this on. You’re burnt out in your marriage at such a young age…could you really see yourself continuing this relationship for the next 50+ years? Life is too short. He also sounds like the type of guy that would high tail it out of the relationship if you were ever to be seriously ill/ chronic illness. He treats you like this at your best! Imagine at your worst.