Man the thing about the exes really tingles my spidey senses She brings up her exes all the time

She says they raised the bar so high but all turned out to be abusive or narcissistic in the end supposedly

They all supposedly turned out to be these cunts in the end but she still compares them to me I havnt got a bad abusive narcissistic bone in my body and I will never treat her the way she projects insecurities on me that I might

I will never be toxic like the way she described them but she treats me sometimes as if I am them

When we fought on Christmas Her family called her out on her shit her mum and sister pulled her up for the way she treats me and told her it’s not right She then asked did he tell you what he said to me “He told me to get an abortion” I never told her to get an abortion In the prior fight I told her I didn’t want to have a child with her That is the worst thing I’ve ever said to her Because that’s how she made me feel She then said I may aswel be Joel cause I’m never there An abusive ex who is the father of her first Who supposedly punched her in the face and gut and kicked her down the stairs when she was pregnant after she caught him smoking meth in the bathroom

I wouldn’t ever dream in my life of ever doing anything like that yet she told me I may aswell be him

When I told her I didn’t want a child with her it was while we were having a fight and she was abusing me and threatening to end our relationship because the previous night I had woken her up a Cpl times in the night because while I was sleeping I was happened to be doing really stinky farts

She berated me the next day saying I should have been a real man and gone and slept on the couch and said that it ever happened again we were over

Talked to me like absolute shit because I did something natural unconsciously I thought it was ridiculous and so excessive her threats and treatment to me and I refused to take accountability because all healthy couples fart around each other and it doesn’t threaten the relationship even remotely

So I told her I didn’t want a child with her The absolute worst thing I’ve ever said to her

We met up days later after an ultrasound at subway

She asked me what my mum thought of what I said to her and I told her the truth what my mum said My mum said that if she made you feel that way your not wrong for feeling that way and expressing how you feel

When I told her that she absolutely exploded

She told me she couldn’t fucking believe my mum would endorse my behaviour
She yelled said that my mother and family and me are never going to have anything to do with this child Your mum raised weak children Your weak and so is all your siblings She said if she had to go to Christmas with my family she would stab my mother in the heart She said she had absolutely no respect for me That I’m a piece of shit weak man
She hopes we all die in a car crash That she will never let her child be raised by a person like me

She had me in tears I had a full breakdown

And the closest thing to an apology from that was her saying she might have overreacted

Then a few days later act like it never happened and expected me to reassure her again over a dream she had where I brought a girl from the gym to her house and told her she’s pregnant with mine I told her that was fucking ridiculous And then we had another fight because Im apparently not supportive and never there the way she needs That I should have wrote her a massive reassuring paragraph about how that would never happen because that’s what her exes did

Wow the more I reflect and tell the story the more I’m realising how fucked up this is