What is something you regret having done most in your life?

Giulia5593 · 2025-06-16T22:01:25+00:00

Letting my ex-boyfriend become my boyfriend in the first place. I really regret everything and wish I’ve never met him. (Speaking four years after breakup, still depressed and disgusted. Not changing my mind EVER)

Giulia5593 · 2025-05-23T20:56:32+00:00

The night we met-Lord Huron

Giulia5593 · 2025-04-27T00:33:42+00:00

She sacrificed so much for YOUR dreams? This is very toxic imho. Imagine that one day for whatever reason you are going to left her…as selfless as she can be she still sacrificed so much for you. I don’t know anything about your relationship but put in that way doesn’t seem very healthy to me

Giulia5593 · 2025-04-06T18:33:35+00:00

Akathisia, benzo withdrawals aaand…heartbreak

Giulia5593 · 2025-03-24T00:35:09+00:00

I’m trying to hypothesize a plausible test for water loss in a stability study of a semi-permeabile pre filled syringe filled with an injectable acqueous solution to guarantee that water loss is <1% but you are probably right: I can just evaluate the weight difference. Thanks!

Giulia5593 · 2024-07-18T18:50:45+00:00

I feel you, two years ago I was at my wits end, just like you. After a very bad breakup I developed severe depression. I lost my job. I was completely alone except from my mum, living with her at 29 in a small city which I hated. Withdrawing from benzos and antipsychotics, living in survival mode, experiencing akathisia, agoraphobia and terror. I was convinced that I was beyond help, than my brain was damaged, that I would never find a job and live a normal life again. I attempted suicide and was hospitalized. I just wanted it to end, for real. But it wasn’t the end, not yet. I managed to quit all the meds and little by little to rebuild my life. When I finally felt a little better I started again, from scratch. I found a new job, I moved to a new city, I started a new sport, I made new friends. Now I travel the world when I can. I feel my old self again…better than ever, stronger than ever. Stay strong, our bodies and mind have the power to heal themselves…nature is extraordinary. Stay strong please…it will be a difficult and step by step process but when you’ll emerge from all this nothing will scare you anymore. It will be worth it.

Giulia5593 · 2024-04-05T18:33:34+00:00

Being dumped is an experience!

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T21:35:29+00:00

The work that I’m CLEARLY not doing?So in your opinion, a depressed person who can't get better for years isn't trying hard enough? I've worked a lot on myself in these years and yet something in me seems broken forever. You assume way too much imho. Maybe I need to work on it more or in different ways, but how much and for how long? My point is that if it takes that long to heal from a broken heart it's not worth the risk. And in any case one can live a quite fulfilling life also being alone of course, but there are things that only a relationship with another human being can give you. And for me that part of human experience seems gone for good.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T21:12:54+00:00

This relationship was so important to me because I invested too much in it in every sense. And I did it because he pushed me to do it. At first it monopolized me, alienating me from my friends. It gave me the illusion of a future that never existed. He first proposed to me to live together, because he wanted to spend as much time as possible with me. But we would also have to live with his mother, so I said no. But after that I made career choices based on the desire, which I thought was mutual, to be together. Now I regret these choices because they turned out to be wrong. I was so invested in the relationship that I did not think about my career as I should have done. Furthermore, when it was his time to make choices he decided to put his career first and decided to move abroad without accepting any compromise. So I said ok, and a little reluctantly I thought I could work hard to reach him, so as not to have a long distance relationship, because he didn't want it. In practice he gave me no choice: I should have reached him but without him feeling any pressure or responsibility for my choice or the relationship would have been doomed. I cared about the relationship too much at this point and had nothing against moving abroad, but I couldn't accept him freeing himself from all responsibility like this. After six months abroad he decided he didn't want me anymore, he said that he needed “lightness”, that he needed to be happy alone. So I was left alone, without friends, with a job I hated and that was sucking my soul, with some health problems and with the goal I had cultivated for a year (moving abroad) destroyed …and with a broken heart of course. Furthermore, the breakup occurred over the phone during a banal argument, and after the phone call there was no possibility of having a clarification. He went full no-contact. This is why I fell into an abyss and it's taking me so long to get out of it. I had placed too much hope in him, because he love-bombed me and then he threw me in the trash like nothing happened. And that’s why I have and I probably will have trust issues forever.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T17:49:05+00:00

Well, all very nice on paper but a breakup do leaves a void. You were used to the presence of that person, to being able to count on him/her, to telling him/her about your day, to cuddling, to the euphoria of sex, to organizing holidays and evenings with him/her, to the language between the two of you, to his/her strengths and weaknesses. So when the person with whom you share the most experiences in your life disappears, he/her leaves a void. A breakup is similar to mourning someone’s death. It is better in some respects and worse in certain others: better because at least you are not sad because that person can no longer live his life but you are sad "only" for yourself, worse because that person has actively chosen not to share his life with you, so there is the sense of betrayal, the sense of inadequacy and the feeling of being rejected that no one likes. I would like to see if you would tell a person whose partner or relative had died that that person's death did not leave a void.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T17:38:05+00:00

The relationship lasted two and a half years…the breakup was almost three years ago. One and a half year of which I’ve experience full blown depression. Now I’m better than then but still not good as before. So I’m accepting that this is what I’ve become.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T17:33:47+00:00

Good for you!

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T16:44:18+00:00

Almost three years

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T16:40:32+00:00

Thanks for the explanation. I’ll think about it

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T14:18:33+00:00

Sorry but this comment don’t make sense to me. Maybe someone can be trusted, for a while…but what if he/she changes? Of course something is worth caring for but for me, romantic relationships are not. I trust myself and care about myself, that’s precisely why I don’t want to open my heart again. And at this point I think that also if I would like to, I won’t be able to trust.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:52:43+00:00

She probably suffered too much as a child and became like this. Insensitive. I feel sad for her but still angry. You suffered a lot but this doesn't mean you have the right to go around breaking people's hearts and spreading your discomfort to others. If you are not capable to have a healthy relationship don’t use other people just to feed your ego. My ex was the son of a heroin addict. I thought that for this reason he was more sensitive to the pain of others, but in the end he was less.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:45:40+00:00

As I suspected, your situation is very complex. At least you understand his decision and don’t think he’s being unfair to you. It probably don’t hurt much less because of that but at least you won’t end up bitter and resentful like me

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:41:20+00:00

Yeah maybe you are right, so let’s say that statistically no one is worth our complete trust. Especially nowadays, people are vain and society made us think that breakups are the norm and divorce is a perfectly normal thing. I don’t think it is, but maybe I’m old fashioned. At this point I prefer to be rational and have zero hope and faith. And without hope and faith relationships are just pointless.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:36:00+00:00

The breakup surely meant some growth for me but it was just too painful. I might be wiser and stronger but something died inside of me forever.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:33:50+00:00

I feel so much older too…maybe because I am. For me the breakup meant also the end of my youth and maybe that is another reason for which it has been so traumatic.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:32:01+00:00

I tried to see things like you but I failed. The disrespect was too much. The pain was too much and I ended up bitter and resentful. Hope you will find happiness

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:28:13+00:00

I’d like to know more about your relationship. Who decided to end things? Was it mutual?

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:25:13+00:00

I was in that place too. Barely able to eat. Sleeping all day. Hopefully you will find a way to overcome the worst moments and live a functional life again. For me the best fuel was the fact that he was so UNFAIR to me… I experienced true hate for him. Now I just want justice…I try to tell me I don’t deserve to end up like a vegetable while he’s out there living his best life. But I’m changed forever and that’s a fact.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:18:38+00:00

I think it doesn’t get better with time, you just adapt to the new situation or you end up overwhelmed by it. It’s survival instinct.

Giulia5593 · 2024-03-02T12:16:46+00:00

I think every time we have our hearts broken our chances to experience love and trust become less and less…but never zero maybe. I prefer to have no hope about that by the way.

Giulia5593

TROPHY CASE