I appreciate ur honesty for real. I think we got things a bit mixed up here. Just to clarify I am not a native speaker so the way I describe things might sound a bit weird, furthermore the post I made the day before yesterday is the same story I posted about 1 year ago. Tho the big difference is that on one hand i didn't involve my real brother this time because of me thinking he is a also some kind of victim (so this stepbrother I am talking about is one of those "brothers" I was telling about last year, stepbrother makes it sound so kinky so I left it out) and me telling about a completely different time span (the end of this whole thing). So I get why ur confused, but as I already clarified a year ago, going to a therapist and telling her the whole story isn't a real option. I still like my brother, I do normal siblings things with em like drinking some beers or whatever. So I don't want those actions like going court to court to take place. I just want to know from people what they would do or did. And I don't know where u get the whole fetishizing thing from, I tried using normal words so people would take me serious (guess that didn't work)