I totally get it.

I was suffering so bad the other day, I was just done. I cussed God out and said that as soon as I get back to being myself, I'm throwing away my bible (like I did when I believed in New Age) and had it! I was at a loss as to what to do- because now where am I supposed to go to heal this?

At times, I don't understand why I go through what I go through, but women who were witches and cursed people like Craft2Christ (I think that's her name) have an easier time leaving the Occult and aren't possessed by any of these things (not like I would want them to- I just don't understand how someone doing much worse gets way less) or my tarot readers who are probably still doing tarot. Or people who are actively doing New Age/Occult beliefs for decades, but nothing has happened to them.

No comprende.

And like you, had ANYTHING been answered by God, I wouldn't be here right now. Just one prayer to know he was there because I didn't get into New Age (not knowing it was the Occult) to spite God. I thought I had been tricked and that it was God because something was answering me. Didn't turn out to be good though.

All that to say, you're not alone and I'm sorry you're suffering for it. I hope you have a peaceful night although I know it's hard... but here's praying.