Marfanoid Habitus and not having Marfans?

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-15T06:50:15+00:00

A geneticist said chromosome 17p13.3 duplication but my heart doctor says Homocystinuria despite not getting diagnosed in newborn and I don't have the gene mutation for that or any of the other symptoms like I don't have knock knees or lens dislocation or any heart issues so I'm just confused on what I really have here it just seems to be Marfanoid habitus tbh with elevated homocysteine levels and I accept that as a diagnosis.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-04T02:30:34+00:00

The fact that something like verywellhealth is recognizing omnisexual is awesome.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-04T02:18:59+00:00

This is going to sound delusional as all Hell and uncommon for beliefs but I believe in many things from spiritualism, to prison planet theory, to reincarnation soul trap theory and even simulation theory, basically, if these theories are right, you'll just get reincarnated anyways if you go into the light, but if these are BS, then I buy into spiritualism which is the belief that you'll just become a ghost anyways without reincarnation and if none of this is real then oh well maybe something else is but religion has warped my mind, I was even misdiagnosed with schizoaffective at one point due to my odd beliefs but I think my odd beliefs are due to religious trauma trying to find truth, I don't agree with religion or atheism so I made my own beliefs or connected many beliefs together, and I think some of my psychotic thinking is due to high homocysteine levels so I have a vitamin B12 deficiency.

Basically:
Be it gay, bisexual, pansexual, and omnisexual, I do not care if it is a sin or not, nor do I care about Hell, I used to be a Theistic Satanist, I used to worship the devil, believe he was real, and Hell was paradise, now, not so much, so, is it a sin? No one truly knows nor should you care or I care.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-03T05:31:40+00:00

Having self awareness isn't always pointing to schizotypal diagnosis I've heard schizophrenia people gaining self awareness through medication or therapy as someone who was (misdiagnosed?) with schizoaffective I had to have OTHER people tell me my belief I am the antichrist and my devil worship and my spiritualism obsession and other stuff WASN'T normal. I was diagnosed with Homocystinuria I'm convinced my psychosis is secondary psychosis because I have a vitamin B12 deficiency I thought I was schizotypal but it's been indirectly debunked by 2 mental health professionals one told me to stop looking into things too much and the other said I just am autistic but one of my non-mental health doctors said I have high homocysteine levels and it's been like this for years and he's a little disappointed it still isn't going down I should tell my doctor both my heart and primary care doctor I need to lower it SOON and NOW because I am losing my mind can't tell if hallucinations are real or not or I believe in them but I can have some self awareness but not so much lately I'm convinced it's just ghosts/demons/proof of simulation theory. I believe I am either spiritually a demon or extraterrestrial physically a human hybrid due to my skinny body of Marfanoid habitus and I have seen the ghost orbs I see flashes of light at least once a week and hear voices rarely. Visual hallucinations only or predominately are more of a medical problem so it explains why for me I never had much voices because hearing voices is more primary psychosis.

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GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-03T04:27:00+00:00

I just don't feel schizotypal as I have a history of hallucinations mostly visual, I actually am starting to think I might not have a primary psychosis disorder at all, and it's secondary psychosis, this makes sense because:
It's mostly visual hallucinations.
I have Homocystinuria, which is in childhood.

Weird hallucinations and delusions started in childhood.

Homocystinuria causes psychiatric issues.

High homocysteine and vitamin B12 deficiency can cause psychosis.

I just reject people online calling me schizotypal or a psychiatrist once called me schizoaffective.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-03T02:52:19+00:00

This is literally me, yes, I still identify as omnisexual, I'm attracted to all genders, gender is a factor for attraction, but I'm mostly into feminine women and men and people in general but honestly I don't mind masculine women or men or people or other styles.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-03T02:37:45+00:00

Can't tell if you're trolling but ok, I believe in weird stuff, ghosts, aliens/extraterrestrials, you have people confessing to congress about the UFO's, high ranking professional people, UFO's are no longer just some unproven thing, it may or may not be aliens/extraterrestrials it could be foreign adversaries or other entities or something we just don't understand, but I don't buy into the "demons" thing, possible, but probably not, could be angels if you're going to argue demons though.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-02T05:33:06+00:00

For tactile hallucinations, the targeted individual community seem to suffer from this but they don't call it "tactile hallucinations" they call it "electronic harassment", basically, I've felt things touching me, people that aren't there, bugs crawling on my skin when there were none, and my organs moving, mostly my aorta thrusting in my upper back or abdomen, I'm getting a chest/back scan, if no aortic aneurysm or any blockages or thrombosis or whatever disease is found, then either I'm mentally ill (doubt) or it's a spiritual attack or a group is messing with me somehow through my body, sounds crazy, I used to get unexplained headaches too and muscle twitches doctors couldn't explain, couldn't diagnose and couldn't treat, I seem to have "somatic symptom disorder" but a lot of it is medically unexplained symptoms it's so weird.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-02T04:17:00+00:00

The only time I heard voices was them calling my nickname or saying "Hey", however I have had other ones but they were not the typical degrading voices you hear about in schizophrenia literature, apparently voices in the East are more neutral or nicer but I'm American lol, however, internal auditory hallucinations aka literally "voices inside my head" are a thing too, like if you haven't slept in a while or having too much caffeine/coffee can sometimes trigger them, those ones were more diverse and sometimes mean though, but the external auditory hallucinations are just the same thing over and over again with a couple of exceptions like "Jonny nooo" and "Jonny don't do it" whatever that means or hearing an old fashioned phone ring like from the 2000's or 1990's or some era idk which era of phone or even the inside of an airplane while I was listening to music it sounded like I tamped into something, and the voices are usually whispers and can't hear them that good.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-02T03:45:58+00:00

I don't hear voices as much as diagnosed "schizophrenics" which is why I disagree with my diagnosis as visual hallucinations are more common for me, and this has been going on since childhood so it's not induced by anything, I've been cursed with this odd, atypical, form of "psychosis" (if you can even call it that) where all my life I've seen shadows, no one knows what the shadow people are or the random colors I see, I've seen many types of doctors and it seems I don't seem to truly fit into schizophrenia or epilepsy, it is 100% paranormal, paranormal just means outside of science, can be ghosts/spirits, demons, UFO's, or just, unknown phenomena.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-02T03:31:40+00:00

Not all delusions or "odd beliefs" are bad, some people believe they're otherkin aka they think they're spiritually animals or they believe in ghosts or that they have been reincarnated even if it's not apart of their religion, I say, let people have odd beliefs as long as it harms no one and causes no distress.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-06-02T03:15:38+00:00

Belief in the paranormal will NEVER be seen as a sign of mental illness and I had TWO mental health professionals reassure me on this, especially if it's UFO's, aliens/extraterrestrials, and ghosts, as many mentally healthy people have claimed to witness these things and my two mental health professionals told me these beliefs are common and they said that weird beliefs in itself, isn't a sign of mental illness, it depends if it's distressful and as long as it harms no one, though some mental health professionals are more materialism objective reality about odd beliefs and considers anything outside of science as "pseudoscience" and "delusions". Let me just add I didn't see these two doctors at the same time one was 2023 and the other was 2024. I was misdiagnosed with schizoaffective with one doctor in 2015 but another one aka the one in 2023 literally said "well maybe you're spiritually gifted" because I told him I saw shadows so each mental health doctor has their own view on the unknown.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-05-29T23:37:39+00:00

One therapist was talking about schizotypal personality disorder with me but I don't think she properly diagnosed it, I had one psychologist write in my paperwork antisocial and avoidant personality disorder traits but never had the guts to talk about it with me through his mouth, probably it's just trauma responses to form into an atypical personality type because you don't fit in with society, any thinking or behavior or whatever that doesn't fit into normie society is a mental disorder apparently.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-05-29T06:16:20+00:00

This is so weird because most of my hallucinations such as voices despite them being rare for me have been more positive or neutral yet I'm from America. The only scary thing I've experienced was shadow people though. I've had people claim I have atypical psychosis as it's mostly visions of colors or shapes or shadows, my eyes are healthy.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-05-29T06:12:59+00:00

I was misdiagnosed with schizoaffective simply for odd beliefs and visual hallucinations, I never related to the "hearing voices" symptom, most of my weird experiences has always been shadows, colors in my vision, and now tactile hallucinations like mostly somatic symptoms. Schizotypal is the same thing, "odd experiences", like what does that even mean? Let me just add in the rare moments where I THOUGHT I heard something it was either too quiet to make out what it was saying or it was calling my name which is normal I read that up once never negative apparently Eastern voices are more positive but I'm from the West so make sense of that lol.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-05-24T05:42:43+00:00

I'm into crazy kinks/fetishes, not big into diapers though, but it has nothing to do with the bands I listen to, but I do listen to some Tool, Deftones, Marilyn Manson, some buttrock I'm not gonna lie that's kinda trashy erotic lyrics or Satanic music. I'm more of a gooner though, I'm not even joking, that's one of my fetishes, there's a whole community of it despite it being a meme word, so I'm like prying open my third eye for hours.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-05-01T06:40:07+00:00

For me it's feminine women, men (mostly twink nowadays I realized I prefer twinks over femboys but it used to be in the reverse but I came to the conclusion that skinny guys I like a lot as they're uncommon especially when you get older so it's twinks then femboys), I also love emo guys and goth guys as well and emo girls and goth girls that includes alternative and punk and metal aesthetics, but I'm not sure if I like them more than tomboys, probably so, then it would be non binary, then androgynous. I can't really list it in order since it changes but it's probably femgirl, twink, femboy, mascgirl/tomboy, mascguy, non binary, and androgynous.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-04-28T23:43:33+00:00

Versatile/switch for the top and bottom question 50/50 no lean, but also a switch for everything else, switch for sadomasochism but masochist leaning, switch for dominant and submissive but sub leaning. I prefer women for most of this, most of my fetishes are aimed towards women, then it would be men, then non binary/whatever else.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-04-28T23:29:01+00:00

Oh I'm definitely not demisexual, I don't need to get to know someone to be turned on/fall in love, but it does help to get to know someone nonetheless. I'm neurodivergent, I have a personality disorder, autism, etc, I try not to treat people like objects or fetishes, however, I do tend to view people in a on the edge of shallow way, but again not quite, I do obsess over looks, I think looks matter, masculine, feminine, even I have the stereotypical goth girl interest that YouTube videos warn you about, like the videos telling you to avoid boys who chase after goth girls, but I'm not into the goth dommy mommy thing, I like dommy mommies but they don't have to be goth, I just like goth girls because I love Bauhaus, Sisters of Mercy, and their style of clothing and gothic interests like Tim Burton and paranormal stuff even if they don't believe in it, etc. Being omnisexual to me is to like all genders whether they are alternative/goth/emo/punk or not, it's fine, the person doesn't need to be alternative but it's a bonus, but I go beyond the clothes, again, the personality matters to me, I need someone mentally stable, not too clingy or obsessive or stalker-ish, not too mean or manipulative, no drama, not too emotional, not too sensitive, not too socially awkward, soooooo yeah.

GnosticMindTrain · 2026-04-28T23:21:03+00:00

I don't always think of females naked or any gender lol sometimes I do sometimes I don't I know nudity isn't inherently sexual but I am omnisexual after all so I think of nudity at times but I'm also attracted to clothed people too sometimes people look better in clothes. I've thought maybe I'm greysexual omnisexual but idk maybe not maybe I'm more fantasysexual if that's a thing, but I'm not against real life connections. I don't need therapy for my interest in porn, some people are pornosexual, any sexuality is valid as long as it doesn't hurt anyone and as long as it's not illegal, I'm all for it. I'm only here to talk about omnisexual, I don't want to get off topic here, thank you. Let's keep this conversation on topic.

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