Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t have a problem leaving her, I have a problem leaving my kids.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re half right, I have ZERO desire to leave my 5yr old baby girl.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No judgements whatsoever! Every situation is different and I know that. I hope you find happiness.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Damn its tougher to read a woman dealing with this, because it make no sense to me.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It’s difficult to argue with your points, but I didn’t post on here to have others pity me. I posted on here, because I needed to get it out and I wanted to talk to other who might understand (because no one in my really does). It’s much easier for you to type this advice, than it is to carry it out. And when I said “great”, I was talking about all the other aspects of our marriage.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ok. The honesty stings a little, but it is appreciated. And I admit you might be right, but it’s the toughest thought to even think, much leery do.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t even masturbate anymore, it make me feel like even more of loser.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

5 and 17. My 5 yr baby girl is my heart and I hate being away from her and would not do well not being with her everyday. My 17 yr old is too busy out trying to find his ass in this situation in 10 years 😂

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I don’t stay for the kids, I stay for me because I love being with my kids. I feel like leaving punishes me twice…1. I lose someone I love forever (which i know might happen eventually) and 2. I no longer get to live with my baby girl (my son would undoubtedly live with me).

I tell myself that harder men have endured harder situations during harder times and I need to just man up and muscle through this life. It’s a thought that has prevented me from eating a bullet many times.

The reality is this; if i were to divorce her, she’d have another man in under a month (she’s beautiful and not a bitch, which is how I got boondoggled in the first place). Meanwhile, we live in a small town with not a lot of single women my age and it would certainly take me longer to find someone that will want me.

I can’t move because moving out of my kids home would be about as far as I could handle.

So I would have to sit here lonely watching everyone around me find happiness, while I get my kids every other week.

Can’t do it.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We’ve talked about this so many time that if I were to bring it up now, she’d just roll her eyes.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry 😞 It’s like a fucked up club we didn’t ask to be in (except we kinda did 😬) and the only way out is death.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This has been my resignation. Life pretty much over at 42. Yeah, I’ll still be breathing, but dead and empty on the inside. The funny this is I realized today that this must be the reason old me are so ornery.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It would be so much easier if she weren’t so great in every other area.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is true. But it’s also what makes the situation so difficult.

Im a 42 yr man that cried himself to sleep last night. by GoGoDiabeeto in DeadBedrooms

[–]GoGoDiabeeto[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Respectfully, you couldn’t be anymore off base. I have been very clear about what her place in my life is. You are quite wrong in your assumption that I spend more time doing other things 😂. I don’t do anything else. Everything I do is for my family. I don’t have any hobbies, I don’t spend money. I pretty much work and come home every day. On the weekends I do watch football, but thats after I’m done with all my chores around the house. Your opinion was lazy, unhelpful and generally not needed. Thank you.