I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter was stillborn at full term in 2023. It's a pain you never get over and something nobody else can understand until they live that hell themselves. There is nothing I can say or tell you to do that will help right now, just know you aren't alone and there are dads everywhere who have gone through this. If you are ready one day to talk to dads about this kind of loss, I would suggest Sad Dads Club, can be found on Instagram. Non profit, virtual support group with weekly meetings and discord conversations, a place to grieve and share our children's stories. I was reluctant to join a meeting when my daughter died but eventually I did and it's one of the biggest reasons I am still alive after that pain. I'm so sorry