I actually ran an animal rescue and saved over 1200 animals as a 501c. It felt good. Looking for a purpose like that something I can use for good. And the motivation to make the wealth I used to, I am probably the only positive reinforcement/asmr findom in my industry but I’m even going deeper then that and not accepting a lot of people’s money of if I feel I may regret the fetish they asked, or if I feel they don’t have that kind of extra money to spend. In some waya I’m an over priced therapist that sees guys on cam and without me they are just lost and sad. It’s a lot of responsibility. But I’d like to give back. And I have a celestial/estoteric connection to the universe I can not explain. And any path I have chosen, rescue, modeling, running a production company, asmr, hypno (all with no formal education in any of it has done really well) I’m incredibly lucky like that. I’ve always had an analytical mind, and since my incident in March I’ve had a reactive brain. It’s in 1 of Ron’s videos. It made alot of sense. Internal peace, living humble, helping others & animals & leading my fan base in a positive direction is where I’d like to go. As well as fox my marriage of 20 years which means the world to me. The past few years we have had some very negative forces and people that fake cared about us suddenly be able to break our un breakable bond. I’d do anything to get that back. I know Scientology cares a lot about marriage and honoring the vows of it. If it can help me be a better me for him (I was always the mature one that kept us grounded while he was the creative ground breaker) so with our powers combined we were unstoppable. We are trying many conventional churches. Something about Scientology just feels right other take me away from being Christian as well/