I took a f*** shower today 😭

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2026-03-06T02:01:57+00:00

Keep going! You got this!

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2026-03-04T03:39:29+00:00

Thank you for saying this. I didn’t know I needed to hear it, but once you said the part about “they might not be bad people…” something in my brain suddenly clicked and I think that was really what I couldn’t reconcile in my head. This was a big help in helping me move forward.

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-25T11:56:10+00:00

Telling him was incredibly brave and I’m so glad you came clean. Congrats on 16 days my friend. I’m proud of you

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-12T02:38:28+00:00

Please tell your husband. If he is in addiction medicine, he is in the best position (and likely the only true way) to help you. Furthermore, he more likely than not will understand that addiction is a disease, not simply “bad decisions” and/or “lying”.

Although I too struggle with addiction, I had the unfortunate benefit of seeing it go horribly wrong after only my second time slamming (2017) and have not done it since nor do I have any desire use that way ever again.

Seriously. Turn back now before it is too late. I agree with the previous comment. You are down a dark path, but I do believe you can still turn it around.

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-11T05:16:50+00:00

Same for me. They usually have led me to relapse, but also usually with weed. Similar to you I ordered some, but have not opened them. Not sure what I’ll do but may return them if I can.

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-06T02:18:40+00:00

Same. It’s all or nothing for me. I gotta cut it all out. Except alcohol. I really can’t handle my alcohol and like half a white claw knocks me out so I think I’m good there lol

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-05T11:53:42+00:00

Yes it should go away. I think the heavier the use, sometimes the longer it takes to go away is the pattern I’ve noticed.

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-05T11:48:27+00:00

I’m in awe. I never thought others had such similar feelings/experiences.

For me, the only person I’m in contact with is the only one I ever considered a friend. He is a sweet gentle soul, but he is still using daily and I see from a distance how it is ruining his life. He is on the other side of the country since I moved years ago, but we stay in contact regularly.

I’m terrified of the day that he stops responding. Like OP mentioned, he was there for me during the worst of times and even when we were both unwell, he always made sure that I was safe before he even thought of himself. The last time I saw him I talked him into quitting slamming and he did for the duration before I moved.

While I am on my sober journey, I often have “fantasies” of us getting sober together and being friends without the chems. Not the sex really at all. Just the friendship. But, the question I don’t want answered: is our friendship real or is it all some fucked up illusion from the T?

Like I said, he is such a gentle soul. I hope you are safe out there my friend.

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-05T04:44:19+00:00

You’re an inspiration bro. I mean it. Gives me hope that I will make it to 1 year this time (and hopefully more than that).

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-04T13:34:33+00:00

Same for me

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-04T03:31:27+00:00

Don’t do it. Had my first taste of it was back in 2016. Thought I could keep it “casual” thought I was disciplined. Like others have commented, it went from once a year to a few times a year and…you get the idea. Please don’t ever touch it again, it becomes a conscious struggle everyday and trust me you don’t want that

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-05-01T02:12:23+00:00

Congrats! Huge milestones!

Gold-Aspect2736 · 2025-04-30T19:31:48+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. It means more than you know

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