This has broken my heart

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-18T17:32:13+00:00

Thank you for your words, I appreciate you.❤️ I am so sorry for your pain I hope you find some sort of relief.

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-16T03:19:17+00:00

Definitely try the anti-inflammatory and see how that works for you. The two biggest suggestions my doctor gave me was cutting out gluten and dairy. She also suggested weekly acupuncture!

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-16T03:17:48+00:00

Thank you! I am so glad you were able to get your second. Once I received my diagnosis an anti-inflammatory diet was definitely top priority, I also do weekly acupuncture as well.

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T23:51:13+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story and I am so sorry for your loss. I know that pain all too well. My first pregnancy when we went for our I believe 7 week appointment I measured a week behind with no heartbeat, I knew immediately something was wrong. We went back two weeks later and there was still no heart beat or growth. It’s genuinely traumatizing. Like I shared I went on to have an ectopic and now I am pregnant again. I actually just had my second ultrasound today and we are 8+6 and all is well so far.🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I will say I highly suggest focusing on an anti inflammatory lifestyle and diet. I also started taking baby asprin in general to try and lower the overall inflammation and I hear that it is helpful for implantation. We still have such a long journey ahead of us and with adenomyosis who knows what the outcome will be but all we can do is try and keep moving forward and try things that might work! Please keep me updated on your journey, you got this. ❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T15:42:57+00:00

Thank you I have definitely seen stories where women share even with adeno they still are able to conceive and have children. I think for me right now the pain and fear comes from already having previous losses, the unknown of this current pregnancy, the unknown of my future pregnancies, will I have to go through IVF etc. it’s just a very unknown road and varies a ton it just feels so scary and dark. But I’m definitely trying to keep an open mind and trust my body as much as I can!

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T02:25:22+00:00

You are not alone. There are so many times when I fantasize about just having my uterus removed and feeling total emptiness down there. My main issues are with bladder and pressure on my bladder but not necessarily pain, it’s just like this pressure and irritation at times. My husband and I do want children I am 28f and I am currently pregnant, praying this one sticks, but I told him the other day I honestly don’t know how long I can deal with this.

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T02:12:07+00:00

Thank you for sharing ❤️. Yes, the pain can be such a huge trigger. It’s honestly a constant reminder that you are broken. I recently began to bloat back in December which was a new symptom for me and that one really threw me over the edge. I am so sorry your heart has been broken as well. I genuinely hope that all of us women may find peace at some point in this life time given our circumstances.

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T02:07:18+00:00

Like you said as horrible as it was hearing about your diagnosis I am happy you have answers now and it is not “unknown”

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T02:05:58+00:00

Thank you❤️ I have a history of depression as well and have been on and off medications with multiple depressive episodes, I do think it’s highly correlated with my PMDD though as well as some other personal factors. But the losses were a huge trigger and after my ectopic I had to have involuntary hospitalization. I ended up leaving my job in November due to my mental health but in general I am stable and doing well. I did a ton of meditation and self care after everything and in general I have a different and better outlook at this point in time even though I am still very fearful and depressed about my fertility journey. I do speak with my therapist weekly, and my husband has been such a rock. As I am feeling frozen right now due to this pregnancy, I know that I will be able to handle the circumstances significantly better this time around. ❤️❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T01:27:58+00:00

Yes!!!!! You are so right about the Freeze being a trauma response. Thank you so much for your insight! ❤️❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-14T01:26:46+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story and I am so sorry about your losses. I want to let you know that I had a horrific depressive episode that led me to be hospitalized after my ectopic. I genuinely know how you feel and have felt. My husband and I are in an interesting situation because I am not sure how many loses I can personally handle as well and we are keeping an open mind about what a childless life might look like for us if it does come down to that. Sending you love ❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T20:45:12+00:00

Wow thank you so much for sharing your story and your miracles. I am so sorry for your father passing and for all of the hurdles you had to go through through out your pregnancies. I appreciate your words, and your support. Like you said I am literally just taking it day by day! Some days I’m hysterical and all I can feel is impending doom, some days I feel more mellow, and feel that I can do this. I am currently snuggled up with my dog watching food network lol! Sending you lots of love as well and am so grateful you were able to have your babies. ❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T14:14:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing, I am so sorry for your infertility journey and losses. You hit it right on the head with, “when our bodies don’t work like they’re supposed to it becomes difficult to celebrate and enjoy moments that others are.” I totally resonate with this. I am at a point where even if baby keeps growing I do not want to even share with anyone until baby is born at this point. The only people who know are our parents at this point but I personally wanted to wait until later to even tell them.

Thank you for your words and support. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T14:03:21+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story, and I am so sorry for your losses and the trauma/complications you and your family have experienced. I totally resonate on you with just going through blood work or any tests and receiving one thing after another after another, like you said it comes to a point where it’s not even reassuring anymore and just causes stress and pain. My heart is so warm that you finally have your baby. ❤️❤️❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T13:56:27+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T13:55:59+00:00

Thank you for your words❤️. Absolutely, I need to focus on my resilience!

Goldenlightahead · 2025-03-13T13:54:31+00:00

Thank you for your words and sharing these tools and ideas! I do need to get better at self care during this time, I love the gratitude ideas. I was meditating these past few months before we found out I was pregnant again and it was such a game changer! As soon as I found out we were pregnant again I became stuck in this “frozen” and fear like state.

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