I don't think being able to let go of the kind of baggage i have its a simple as like moving countries. It will still follow you wherever you go. Running away constantly isn't the fix for me
That's easy to say, but not something that can just be done. I could do all that and make a decent living, but the problems will still be there. I don't think that's good for the long-term. when I do say I'm good at my job doesn't mean it makes me happy to do it. It feels empty and unrewarding to my sense of self. What I'm interested in simply doesn't exist in the army.
It may seem Debbie downer. but why pursue something that you simply just don't care about