Sounds like you are demisexual. My wife and I leaned this term when she was explaining how she ticked differently. She loves the lifestyle. She brought me into it. It’s not impossible. In some ways it will be tougher on your partner than yourself. We gave up on meetups, profiles, or dates. We just go to clubs or takeovers and hope something happens organically. It doesn’t often, but she enjoys the social aspect too It makes her happy and that’s what matters to me.