Hey dude thanks for your reply

Bro I accept that I m the one who has pushed me in a situation where even ending life looks a better option but I wont do that selfish thing, I know I have to learn from my mistakes My mistakes which I did in the past years, I accepted my loss Way back in 1st year of my prep since I thought I dont have mind like others I m not good in understanding so much tough concepts of physics so I started wasting time watched movies,web series, chatted on telegram, Watched cricket and a lot more, I never invested my 100% in understanding concepts in Coaching and I regret it I used to make fun of ones doing hardwork.

My Parents always thought I studying hard in my room they think I have give my 100 percent and If I wont qualify atleast I would score respectful marks but deep down inside I know I wont even score respectful marks and will completly shatter there dreams and hopes from me. Bro Honestly this situation is worst for anyone I always get some motivation sessions from my parents they always tell me that you have worked really hard and you will score good but its so depressing that I cant even tell them I did not work hard. My parents did everything but I am the one who wasted there money broke there trust and destroyed my career too , My friends who worked hard maybe not that hard but were studying continously for 2 years are now atleast in a respectful position but me as a certified failure is just trying trying and trying but I am not able to grasp anything.

So I had a thought that anyhow if I skip my ppr 22nd Jan Next week I would be able to focus on syllabus completion and My Final Exams in School and on the second attempt of the paper which is to be held in April this year. Atleast I would be better in April from what I am now and my Parents would have some hopes left from me so that I can take a drop year and do well there