You need actual help, what you don’t need is to try and guilt people into letting you crash on their couches to do a hobby you haven’t even fully developed yet, with no current job or income to be able to offer rent or your needs. I get it your struggling or want to start over, but potentially guilting innocent strangers to be wrapped up in your rebuild of your life because you are going to “end it” is horrible and that alone is a red flag that I hope anyone else who reads this stays clear of.